Even young men grow weary...

Was just doing a quiet time in library on Monday morning. Yes, it's been reduced to doing it in the library. Have been trying my bestest to find a quiet place at home but it's pratically impossible. i remember the bible mentioning something about how we should go to a secluded place in silence, close the doors and windows behind us, and seek God in that privacy so we can truly listen to his voice. i can't help but wonder why i don't have my own private place....somewhere where i can really listen to Him. i've been beginning to believe that it's coz he wants me to CHERISH my time with Him first, so that i won't take it for granted....beginning to love the small time frames that i AM truly alone with Him...so God it's working! hehe...

i was reading Isaiah 40...and two things really stood out for me. First was in verse 11

He tends his flock like a shepherd:
He gathers the lambs in His arms
and carries them close to His heart;
he gently leads those that have young.

when i read this verse, i had this awesome sense of security and love. like how only God can provide it. he gently leads those who have young. i dont think in today's context it refers to pregnant women or something like that. i think what it means is that God GENTLY leads those who have special needs, who are weaker than the rest, who have a spiritual disability in a sense. He gently leads...wow...only a few verses before Isaiah proclaims how powerful God is by likening us to grass....and how God just blows us over and away if he needs to.

The last few verses (30 and 31) really spoke to me though...

Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope on the Lord
will renew thier strength.
They will soar in wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary;
they will walk and not be faint.

i want to run and not be weary; to walk and not be faint; i WANT to soar on wings as eagles do.And i desperately need to RENEW my strength. Hope on the Lord. Hope on the Lord. Hope on the Lord.

The thing about hoping on Him is, he's not interested on us hoping on Him for things we CAN'T do on our own strength. It's the things we CAN do on our own strength, the things we think we are capable of doing by ourselves. Those are the things he wants us to hope in Him for. But God, if we can do it on our own strength, why should we "bother" you? :)

I've grown to learn we never "bother" God. He's always craving for that moment when he can speak to His children. He gets excited when we ask him to help us in something we can't do. what more if it's something we CAN do and HOPE in Him anyways.

I'm just so amazed at the ways of our God. How awesome is the love and the character of the Lord. As Isaiah put it:

As the heavens are higher than the earth
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts

Isaiah 55:9

Oh that old rugged cross...

On a hill far away stood an old rugged cross,
The emblem of suffering and shame;
And I love that old cross where the dearest and best
For a world of lost sinners was slain.

So I'll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown.

O that old rugged cross, so despised by the world,
Has a wondrous attraction for me;
For the dear Lamb of God left His glory above
To bear it to dark Calvary.

In that old rugged cross, stained with blood so divine,
A wondrous beauty I see,
For 'twas on that old cross Jesus suffered and died,
To pardon and sanctify me.

To the old rugged cross I will ever be true;
Its shame and reproach gladly bear;
Then He'll call me some day to my home far away,
Where His glory forever I'll share.

Love ya Jesus! Thanks for the sacrifice you made, forever grateful :)

REDLINE Men's Conference and my NEW baby...

REDLINE MEN'S CONFERENCE Rocked!! Man it was an awesome time of worship, fellowship and preaching, all done with my brothers in Christ. The preachings were just riveting. This guy, Bishop Joseph Garlington was juz amazing. he had a sidekick named Clarence, who had piano skill i was drooling over. he just created the awesome atmosphere for the preaching. Joseph spoke on knowing God's will for your life. I liked what he said about those who worry whether they are in God's will or not....

If you want to be in God's will, ask Him to put you there.

It's no point asking God over and over again whether you're in His will, just ask him to put you there and have faith that He will :)

He spoke about 5 constants that you face on a God given mission for your life:
a) Enemies
"Without Goliath, David would only be a kid who threw rocks". Enemies WILL come and stand in our way, no question about it. The thing is, God KNOWS that the enemy is there, but he sends us on the mission anyway, so that we will learn to deal with them.

b) Destructive and Constructive Elements
These are elements that tear down strongholds and build altars in your life. And everytime were tearing down stuff which is not in God's will, the bible says were untying the works of the enemy. How powerful is that! By getting ourselves right, were actually undoing what the devil did and maybe even helping someone else get themselves right :)

c) Opposition
1 Chorinthians 16:9 says that a wide door avails itself but there are adversaries in the way. Whenever a door is open, there will be opposition that will try and stop you because Opportunity is preceeded by opposition. But on the other hand, opposition is an indicator that were right on track in our mission for him. Reminds me of James 1:3 ... ( and Hau Wei grins as he reads this... :D Bro ur on the right track, keep at it!)

d) Requirement in courage
A possible acronymn for FEAR could be False Expectations Appearing Real. Fear is a decision; either we submit to it or resist it. the choice is ours. Psalms 23 comes to mind. i'm so thankful he's always there to walk me through my mission.

e) Nothing Happens in the Kingdom until SOMETHING is said.
Words CAN become worlds. If you need to say something that will encourage or correct someone else, please do it because don't expect changes until something is said.

This message just blew me away. Couldn't help thinking how much the girls (who were having thier own girly PJ party hehe) missed. This word wasn't ONLY meant for men, but it was something every christian should embrace. the other speakers also did extremely well, and overall this Men's Conference was just an awesome time for me. (although i didn't really get the car bashing bit....and why we got skittles...hehe)

Anyways i wanna take some time to introduce you guys to my new baby....she's NOT a musical instrument this time. She somewhat complicated and very very delicate....Meet Ms. Loudness Indicator!!

I told you she was complicated stuff hehe. Basically what this does is it takes in audio signals via the mic on the left and it will light up the LED's on the right according to the loudness of the input sound based on a logarithmic scale. All in all this baby consists of 34 resistors, 6 OP AMPS, 5 LED's, 3 capacitors, a diode and a mic, totalling at 50 components!! (to put things in perspective, other projects have only about 11 components on average). i'm soooo proud of my baby!! (oh yeah she's actually shared between me and Prasad :P)

She's going for assessment on Monday. i hope she shines her cute lil LED's for all to see hehehehehe.....:D. Couldn't have done it without the help (and patience) of my group partner. Man this semester's getting nuttier by the day. thanks for getting me through the MIPS test man....the stuff u told me b4 the test came out exactly as u said it ... phew~

Burden is heavy

It IS heavy...

Been feeling off all week. Heck even since last week God has been trying to tell me something. But i have been too pre-occupied with studying and getting my electronics assignment done and doing this and doing that, that i sorta put God's word on hold. Yes i did have an awesome tims on Sunday at church and committee prayer on Tuesday, but the burden got heavier.

Was talking to Pegs and Hau Wei after i got back from uni. i had a plan to study at 11pm, coz i have a test tmr! den all of a sudden, it hit me. i felt this burden....to pray....for what?....i dunno...just pray...stop asking....go... so i went. spent time with God...but i was distracted. hadn't studied at all for my MIPs exam. 'oh nooo, i can't put it off any longer' i thought...so i came back up after awhile. tried to force it, God kept nagging...

Sigh~

Ok God you win as usual. Won't live on my OWN strength but i'm gonna depend on You from now. And i know you'll help settle my exam tmr. Not even slightly worried actually :). You DID help me finish electronics against all odds. Stop questioning, start believing. :D

p.s. will show u guys my electronics project on my next post....it's flippin cool wei hehehe

Earth is Training for Reigning

Genesis 1:26

Then God said " Let us make man in our image, and let them RULE over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth and over all the creatures that move along the ground."

God made man AFTER everything else so that he could let us RULE it. That's also why He made us in His image, so that we can share his dominion and rulership of this world. In that case, in everything we do, we can actually proclaim your rulership over it through Christ Jesus because in Him we live and have our being.

Wow, that just blew me away. Me sharing the rulership with JC. I've got the Power! (Look up acts 1:8 :D )

Anwys here's 10 things a true leader should strive to be (Got it from DNA and Ps. Russell ) :
a) Has Revelation
b) Rule and Reign over Conditions
c) Understands who he is in Christ
d) Always develops himself
e) Led by the right thing
f) Doesn't need a title to start leading
g) Serve's thos who are leading
h) Has an understanding of Godly authourity
i) Speaks the 'Leader' Language
j) People of Faith and Innocence

Would like to comment on:

Understands who he is in Christ
I've been struggling with this bit for awhile. I do think i've made progress in the sense that i start to care less about what others think of me, and what i do and stuff. Now i think the problem is that, at certain parts of the journey, i may have to walk it alone. I guess i'm guilty of becoming comfortable, comfortable in my own group of friends that i'm afraid to step out on my own anymore. Understanding who I am in Christ will enable me to only depend on one person: CHRIST!

Doesn't need a title to start leading
I think i've sorta got this concept. But i'm fearful, once again coz i think i come from a home church where title and status is everything, and usually people who are deemed worthy of sucha title will do more things then others who are juz normal. I need to break this lie that you need titles to do certain things. If i have the burden, i'm gonna do it, whether im 'titled' or not.

Speaks the 'Leader' Language
Don't get me wrong, leaders don't have an exclsive language or something. What this means is that as leaders, we need to be CONSTRUCTIVE, ENCOURAGING and BUILDING or anyhting that would bring increase into someone else's life. When's the last time i said something encouraging, or constructive. i know when i've been mean tho....too often actually!

Well that's what i learnt at DNA today. I like the phrase Russell used...Earth is Training for Reigning, and truly we need to reign over our circumstances to see his Kingdom be established.

In other news....

ME and MY Kettle and MY Cuppa!

Talk about El-Cheapo! I brought my kettle to uni so i can make my own coffee. He he. Got a few stares when i carried my kettle to the toilet to get water, but i DON'T CARE! i mean when i got my hot cuppa coffee i was so ba-ha-gia! Pegs also had her coffee, altho she's not supposed to! Hmph naughty girl. And Hau Wei had Chai Tea (Jerica if you ever read this....It's your tea!!) which he got from coffee HQ. was quite good actually. later Li used the cup to make instant soup. was a bit weird seeing her eat soup out of a coffee cup.

Daniel dropped by and dropped some food (which i told him Li wanted, which was true, but it was good for me in any case). Andrew went and got his dinner and sat and makan there. Walau library becoming like kopitiam. After this we will be wanting to bring a portable stove and cook in there also hehe.

Fifie has PICK IT UP!!! Argh i wished i lived in Botswana or somewhere far far away..... But you deserve it girl!

Positioning myself

Positions are important - that's true! Take football as an example. Individual skill doesn't stack up against good positional play. that's because football is a team sport

Christianity is a team sport

We're a team; Jesus and me. That's why positioning is important. he might want to pass me the ball but i may be out of position. passing me the ball could mean disaster, could mean the ball being lost.Other Christians are team as well. I may need to position myself so that i can help a brother or guide a sister in Christ. or maybe i'm IN thier supposed position. i need to re-position so that our manager (Jesus) can play His awesome tactics perfectly :D

Posture is important too. once you have positioned myself, i need the right posture. which means i need to be in shape (no only physically :P) but also spiritually. Why? So we can handle the job or task that we were positioned for.

Prayer, Praise, Soul Winning, Persistance and Overcoming Strongholds build posture

Would like to leave you with this. Some of us are wearing clothes that need to be shaken off, because it's holding us back. When Bartimaeus (blind man) got called by Jesus, Mark 10:50 says he threw his cloak off, and then went to Jesus. Some of us needs to let go of things that take up space, and occupy our hands. When God's starts dealing out favour and revelation, we'll not be able to grab hold of it because we've got our hands full. Time to let go.

How do we receive this city (Melbourne, or whatever city you're in), if we can't receive the blessings that God gives to the church? if we can't handle/receive the small things, there's not gonna be space for the big things, so start emptying your hands...NOW!

Altar call anyone? He he he.
i think this is a good way of remembering the preaching at church. Ps Russell really gave us an awesome word today. and there were so many salvations ( plus one guy who actually jumped off the balcony to get to the altar....WOW talk about passion lol). City Church is really an awesome revelation. Can't wait for Pick It Up next week...it's gonna be wicked!

*drums rolling*
Presenting something which i really enjoyed, WE really enjoyed....and something p.ewe (didn't come coz h.li cooked) missed muahahahhaah.......TA-DAH!!

FISH HEAD CURRY AT RICH MAHA'S

Hau Wei, Joshua, Chris, Andrew, Kevin, E-Lyn and myself had the honour of digging in into this awesome looking dish....Man it was sooo awesome!! But it came at a price tho ...quite hefty... but still it was worth it!! And i ate with my hands for the second time in a week....that's already more times than the whole of last year combined ... :-0

Remember, always position yourself for favour! ... and possibly flavour too :)

Need to let You know

WOW! I thought it was seriously refreshing. GOD i want more encounters like that. There's something about worshipping and crying out to him alone ... reminds me of this song

in the quiet, in the stillness
i know you are God ...

And not that i never tried to do that before, but in my house its practically impossible. Firstly i share my room with someone who hasn't received Christ (notice the use of the word hasn't :D) and secondly theres nowhere in the house i can go to where i can be alone. it's really that bad. i've tried to do it downstairs but i always get disturbed by someone trying to cook something in the kitchen, or coming down to watch the telly. its Frustrating i tell you...

some of you may have read my previous post and went "What's up with this dude? Mayb he's thinking too much, or he's juz overacting or something....". to be honest i did realize people would get concerned with the blog, but i didn't care. this blog's not FOR them. i'm not trying to entertain or make others feel good inside (although i do try to do it :P). so yeah just a disclaimer that you may find stuff which you wouldn't want to read on my posts ... hehehe.

anwy i was still dealing with stuff yst, when my roomate left for somewhere at 11 pm! he NEVER, i repeat NEVER goes out at night usually. well i went upstairs, and i juz put on some worship song, i just worshiped. Oh the freedom and privacy! Was truly sweet, and i had a good time talking to my daddy...WOW I want my own space God! i promise i will use it to glorify you and to worship You in the quiet, in the stillness.

Ok Honouring time! I'm really blessed by this next group of people. They have made me who i am today!! Let's start with MOM and DAD

No prizes for those who can guess which's my mom and dad :P (i was shocked to find this was one of the only decent shots i had :(. must take more when u guys come down). This was taken just before i left for Australia in my first year, so evidently they were praying really hard hehe. Alex and Margaret Raj, you have really done an awesome job raising me, and although sometimes i've been super naughty and don't listen to what you have to say, just know that I love you guys to bits and can't wait for you to come see me in Melbourne! Love ya~

Den there's my brothers and my grandma

thats David and Daniel my bros. And my dear old grandma. She's been serving in church for ages now. Really love her to bits. and my brothers are very naughty la...aiya but i still beat them both at football hehe :P

Then theres my extended Klang family!!
They all showed up to see me off last year :P. Thanks guys! Your guys are awesomeeeeee...

And finally theres .... ME!!

Doing what i do best....:)

Need to let You know that I love You Jesus. You've given me awesome family, thanks so much!! :D

Losing it...

sadly...

can't hold it...

i'm losing the plot...

i can feel it slipping away...

what got me to this situation i don't know. but this week, i just felt like i was losing my vision for what God has in store for me. only 2 weeks ago i THOUGHT God was trying to tell me something, with the burdens he placed in my heart and all, i thought i was getting a REVELATION, something to work with.

But all i have now is a lousy attitude and a distracted mind. i really think my attitude towards God and ministry stinks as of the last few days. and i hate it....hate living this way. i hate doing stuff and 'going through the motions' while being too concerned about what people around me have to say.i detest living for any other cause. why? cause i know man can fail. he failed me many times before. only God will never fail, and i'm grateful for that.

i can name a few things that might have caused my focus to be blurred. studies, relationships, commitments, selfish desires. man i can picture evey one of them now, and how it's pulling me away from what God wants in my life. and also, i have this attitude i've always wanted to get rid of and i haven't succumbed to it yet, but its tempting me. it's tempting me to be cynical, judgemental and drawing me to jump to conclusions easily. i KNOW for a fact this can cause others to stumble. that's why i'm trying not to fall into these things. it's hard tho, but i try.

what should i do? well i need to stop being selfish, and start thinking like i used to, the mindset which has God first and me last. i need to stop being complacent, i need to find that fire again. i need to find the drive, i need to set the reason im doing this for straight. i don't believe i let friends get in the way of me and my ministry. feel so duhh...well it's not that i dont need friends, but mayb i shud learn to need them less. total dependancy placed on the most high, never seeking for worldly approval, always seeking to glorify his name by doing EXACTLY what he wants, even tho i do it alone.

i need my plot back....

i want to find it...

God help...

please...

...

Pick it Up!!

We had URBAN LIFE today at Arise's place. Not that i had a friend named Arise!, but we played this game where everyone was given a name and they had to use it throughout the whole meeting. Well i got promise, so everyone started to call me Promise the Bear. Errr ok....among the other names was Praise(Hau Wei), Love(Pegs), Joy (Christine) and many others. but the most teruk one was Sam, coz he got Beauty, and i kept going "Hey beautiful"...and smiling cheekily...lolz i'm so gay sometimes....

Today's worship was AWESOME! i had so much fun playing keys. For those of you who don't play an instrument, my advice is PICK IT UP! ... a musical instrument i mean. it's just a totally different level of worship and i want you guys to experiance that. it's never too late to do it. Btw, Pick It Up! is coming soon!!! and it's gonna look something like this....


man it looks so darn funky!! Can't wait to get my hands on it and juz get wasted by the awesome tracks and the worship.....so EXCITED!!!

if there was something God has been trying to teach me this week, is to learn to let go and let God. it's exceptionally harder when you KNOW you can handle the situations your way and it would be alright, but he want's you to hand it over to Him anwy? wow that's like super difficult. but i hope i've been senseitive enough to listen and to do accordingly. Have i mentioned that i love Him so so much?

Owh juz as a side note....check out what Christine drew for me...she did it when she had a free day yst...i must admit i found it weird at first but it's growing on me hehe ...
Ok it just looks wrong la....but hey i think it's kinda cute in it's own way :P. so i said...

jon: hey the bear looks weird la. why the hair like so funny one...and the misai so long leh...
christine: orh...okok i will change...

so i thought...ok she's gonna fix the weird hair and the moustache and make it cuter or something....
(5 mins later)
Christine: So how's the new one??
Jon: Still weird leh!

She said she's gonna do a new one...this time with a red bottle and a red phone...heheh cute la she. but i'm just amazed on how she can find the strength to do everything she does. she's in uni, shes a manager at maccer's, she's in planet uni serving faithfully, she always has 101 things to do, but she still finds time to serve God and give her all to Him. and i know sometimes she may be soo tired that she wants to juz drop down and rest, but she still presses on and perseveres to serve Him. that's what i love about you, faithfullness, a teachable heart and an awesome heart of worship. i really wanna honour you for being you :D

Sadly i don't have a picture of you and me like the rest of em. so i'm

- reserving this spot -

so that when we eventually take a picture together i'll come post it here...heheh. God bless ya Christine...continue to shine for Him!!! *Hugs*

Drastic Measures...

Today was bad, sucky, crappy, lousy and jusy so YUCKY! It started out in the morning, overslept, missed lectures, had this bad sounding morning voice (which Hau Wei heard) that i couldn't get rid of for about an hour, and was juz so lethargic and lazy. And then it got worse when our my electronics assignment was going nowhere. Everyone else had thiers built and all, but ours was still unassembled. Felt so left behind la...

I was juz praying and asking God why this day was sooo bad. i just had this huge cloud over me, i couldn't even think in peace, was so bogged down by my feelings. and then i knew i needed to take drastic measures...so i did this...

and it's quite weird coz hau wei went to a totally different barber. but he got a new cut too, so i didn't feel too left out hehe. then the girls all insisted on taking pics with us (except racheal hehe). it looked something like this...

The two newly-cuts with Peggen-o-saurus...

...with Hui Li the Fairy, and ...

Rachel!

needless to say the haircut lifted me up somehow. but the real uplifting part was when i came back to thier place for dinner (thanks so much girls for the dinner was fun eating with u guys hehe). after that we had an urban life leaders prayer and i tell u the place was rockin with God's presence and i really had an awesome time of prayer. UL guys, you rock! Keep it up!

So in the end, my day turned out to be not as bad as i thought it would be. Love God sooo much!

*strokes head to feel "carpet"-like hair and grins cheekily*

Before i go, just wanna honour the GUYS in OCF. these guys are so flippin fun to be with...man i dunno how OCF would be without em. Guys just continue to burn brightly for Him and i pray we all get a new revelation during the redline men's conference. :)

The guys at camp. This is a before picture. Watch Daryl closely, he's sitting beside me....

wait for it..... timing is everything....

Sherlynn tries to be smart and throws a her slipper into this picture. Watch how fast Darly jumps up to grab it hehe.

*My point: None really...just that these guys can crack you up :). Love you guys to bits!*

My Discovery Group Rocks!!

this my friends are the AWESOME people of whom i have the privilege to call my discovery group.....presenting the

OUTRAGEOUS OAKS!!

Back row: Robin Koh the DG Leader, Jeffrey the Cell Crasher, Rene daughter of Chee Kai, Yeow Siang the Policeman aka Pencuri, Mei Ying the Construction worker, Rowan Son of Chee Kai, Su Lyn the Cool Gal, Sherlynn the Ping Pong Champ, Hau Wei the "i look so gay" guy, and Hong Yueh the Cool Guy I

Front Row: Yours truly the unicorn looking guy, Bruce not from "Bruce Wayne", Chee Kai the Host, Jamie the Loud Laugh Person, Dee Jun the Extremely Nice, Fui the boyfriend of Dee Jun the Extremely Nice, and Sunny the Cool Guy II

We had an AWESOME time at cell dinner. Firstly the food rocked!! Chee Kai really knows how to throw a party man. there was fish head curry and mee goreng and stuff. Dee Jun made great Bakuteh. i have to admit i DID stuff myself silly but it was all worth it! ehehe

Then we had games. besides the fun of playing ping poing in the CoLd, we played Taboo which was heaps of fun, but then we didn't tally the score at the end so we didnt know who won (??). wasted time writing down score hehe. the we played Oom Chi Chi which was soooo tiring coz we were laughing our brains out. Then we did random stuff (like take this picture). Really had a lot a lot of fun with u guys. Just wanna thank the leaders Robin, Mei Ying, Dee Jun and Jamie for an awesome time. Until we meet again my DG, take care :)

I really need to honour this guy. He's been a big brother to me of recent times, and he's a really good friend to talk to and share stuff about. With further ado....presenting TAN HAU WEI!!

Hau Wei and I as part of the (now defunct) T-Shirt Gang
(sorry Chen Hua and Pegs but i needed a pic of juz Hau Wei and I so hope you don't mind being 'censored')

i sense we have the same heart and passion in the things of God, and it's really great to have someone i can talk to about how God is so awesome and how God speaks to me in the weirdest of ways. but besides all that, just being someone with whom i can just do life with, and always encouraging me to do my best for Him. thanks bro, keep up the awesome stuff ur doing and im looking forward to the rest of the semester serving in OCf with ya. God bless!!

<GIRLS, please be informed that i'm his official agent, so please leave a comment if you may be interested or require further information...>

*he's gonna so kill me for doing this hehhehehe*

:D

HEart that LOOKS always OUTwards

yes i'm going to use that word that christians find hard to say and live up to.... and most of the time fail to take seriously...

evangelism
Function: noun
1 : the winning or revival of personal commitments to Christ
2 : militant or crusading zeal

Even to me it's a concept i haven't actually really worked on till now. Having taken up the role of Outreach Officer last year, i did tell myself that i wouldn't do it BECAUSE I have the post, but because it came from a heart that really LOVED and went out to the lost. having read what the mirriam-webster dictionary says about evangelism, anyone would think the first definition would be the typical definition for the word. but the second one, the second one's a lot more interesting. the militant or crusading zeal when doing something. this hit's me hard coz He's beeen constantly reminding of spiritual warfare when were out in the battlefield of life, and how the evil one tries to make us retreat in out fight for the lost. Can someone pass me my armour pls? :)

SO twas a cold Saturday morning when about 25 of OCF Clayton's members braced the winds and sleepiness a usual Saturday morning offers to come and learn more about how we can be effective evangelists. to my surprise we were the largest group there!! Really proud of you guys for being hungry and passionate to learn! Keep it up! Well the speaker Bro Micheal really gave us some insight on how it SHOULD be done, and what different types of people we might be dealing with when we do it. Was really blessed today!

*couldn't concentrate during the workshop, God kept nagging. My heart was heavy all through the session. in the middle of it i closed my eyes and just worshipped and prayed. the burden was so heavy, so so heavy. you can't sit still and juz try and wish it away coz it nags. nags. and it won't stop till you do something about it. still don't know what it was about. but im relieved i wasn't the only one who felt that way. he told me he felt the same thing

"burden was so heavy i couldn't breathe."

will continue to pray. God's got my attention. During the meeting God pointed me so clearly to James 1:3 "Consider it pure joy my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds." i wonder what he's trying to say...*

Lastly i would like to honour another person in my life. She's been oh so dear to me, especially in the last few months...she looks something like this hehe

Li and I watching some movie at Josh's

Quek Hui Li, you have been an AWESOME friend to me and i thank God so much for being able to go through Uni life with you here in Clayton. Who knows if you EVER read this post, but I wuld like you to know that you're SPECIAL, and that you're a great woman of God, so great that you've got all the boys chasing after you ehhehe :). Continue to shine for Him and love Him with all your heart and strength. And maybe lately you think I've been pre-occupied with other people, like the "t-shirt gang" you proclaim us to be, please believe me that you'll always be special to me and whatever it is we Klang ppl stick together eh? hehe. love ya to bits!! *hugs*

WATERFRONT AND GRECO'S

Had our last meeting as Easter Camp Committee at Waterfront today. Wow and I can tell you that place was PoSh!! Juz check these out...

Eileen , ME and Jon Lee before dinner....The scar DOES look HoT doesn't it :P


This is what i ATE...Don't be fooled it was full of bones...*ugh*


LAst pictures of EC2006 committee...with Jun Ming missing as usual :)



This is what we ate at Grecos...~faints~

Just wanna say i love you guys so much...Hau Wei, Jerica, Su Ee, Jun Ming (aka BObby), Jon Lee, Eileen, Liang Jin amd Eleanor and June who cudn't make it tonight, you guys are champions and you really impacted my life so much. Hope to see you guys more often in OCF and church. God bless ya heaps!!

Before i go on i need to take this time to honour someone very special in my life. She has really been the person i look up to and admire, and she's been such a friend to me that I can't stop thanking God for her. Besides shes the only one who knows this blog exists, so yeah!

Pegs and (a stoned) me

You don't realize how much You have blessed my life. All I pray for is that God will do a mighty work in and through your life. Thanks for the effort you have put in to encourage and support all of us. I know we've all been so so blessed. Love ya heaps!!

*roar*

*peggen-a-yellow-saurus is coming*

*roar*

:D

Dinner at Hau Wei's

Hau Wei had us over for dinnnerrrr!!!!
I'm excited around food, so i definitely had a good time. This guy can cook man.....roast lamb, mashed potatoes, coleslaw, soup....goodness it was a feast.
I think that's why Li said his Market Share Price naik hehehehehehe
Thanks Bro! it was just awesome! and especially the fellowship afterwards, i do treasure these moments coz i know i might not get the chance to do it too many times.

Thanks Peggen, Li, E-Lyn and Hau Wei for making my day!!!

Of Prophesies and Promises

Church Rocked!!
Period
Ps. Dave McCracken was so sharp today. He actually prophesied over a few persons and i really felt in my spirit that he was spot on. He gave an interesting picture to the church abt the future of City Church. i'll try and emulate exactly what he said:

"I saw a garden, and in it was many trees. One of these trees was exceptionaly huge and had many fruits which had been growing rapidly. But i also saw a huge eagle like creature hovering over this tree, and having devoured the fruit of other trees, set it's eyes on the fruit in the huge tree. As it hovered, the downwind created stunted the growth of the tree which was once phenomenonly quick. then i saw little bows shooting little arrows towards the bird, and because they were little it didnt have much effect on the giant bird. and when the bird saw this he spewed a fine spray and it fell on the tree and turned to a fungus like substance. this caused the bows to get entangled and weren't effective. then i saw the entanglements cut off, and the small bows merge into a big bow, and it shot a large arrow at the bird and injured it to a point it flew away. and the tree continued to grow bearing bigger and countless fruit. and the gardener came to prune off the branches which had great fruit, and planted it somewhere else. where the gardener pruned, there grew another branch, so much so that the great tree wasnt lessened but the pruning."

Ha ha it sounded like story from a story book. But the meaning of what he wrote was pretty phenomenal. Will take a few days to pray and digest what it all means....

On a lighter note, it's one more month to exams (I said lighter!!). God help me...

The Reason...

Everything has a reason. Which led me to wonder....Why blog? why waste that few minutes of your day writing down what your feelings are, what you're going through, WHY you're going through what you're going through. Many questions, few answers. Yes maybe im trying a bit too hard to sound dramatic (like some blog writers do), but sincerely i want this to reflect me, and what i am really like. thats why i need a reason to blog, a reason i can remind myself when i get to a dry point to keep going. Why blog Jon, why??
I always knew i needed a REASON to blog. HAs the reason come yet? i don't know. but i do know one thing, blogs have the power to ENcourage or DIScourage. the meaning of the two words are pretty simple: EN means to put in and DIS means to take away. i believe that what i blog about can give someone courage or take it away. simple as that. i want to GIVE courage, coz God knows we need it to survive in the world today

Father i pray that every person who browses through these pages of my blog will see something different, that You will be potrayed in every word that i write. Help me not to write about things that will DIScourage, but help me write something that ENcourages. Help me abstain from gossip, slander, backbiting, deceit, over-exageration (and misspellings too :D). And may every reader realize that it's You who put everything in it's place and holds everything in Your hand, through my testimony. In Jesus name, AMEN!

SO yeah i'm praying you would be blessed with what i have to write and say about life and stuff in general. Above all i think, He's the reason we live and have our being. Love ya heaps :D