Trials

Today i was rostered to "observe" the main keyboardist at worship prac ...

Frankly speaking, i didn't know i was THAT rusty... though, it has been more than a year since i've played in any band, and i think i've lost a bit of the feel that was once there.

There was also the tiredness....never had to practice after SUCH a long day before... mann it was hard to focus.

And it just wasn't what i expected. I know there's so much more, a higher level in which we can operate in but we're sorta stuck at a mid level kinda experience; although it's good, i feel we need to go up a notch in our worship. Having said that there's also the place where u just submit to what's required by the church, and you pray God keeps you going.

I'm not one who excels well at starting again. It's a painful process starting at 0 again. i want to be at 9, but there's 8 numbers in between. Long way to go and to learn...

I don't want trials, i want the real deal!