Destined for Greatness

Trials

2010-03-19T02:27:00.002+11:00

Today i was rostered to "observe" the main keyboardist at worship prac ...

Frankly speaking, i didn't know i was THAT rusty... though, it has been more than a year since i've played in any band, and i think i've lost a bit of the feel that was once there.

There was also the tiredness....never had to practice after SUCH a long day before... mann it was hard to focus.

And it just wasn't what i expected. I know there's so much more, a higher level in which we can operate in but we're sorta stuck at a mid level kinda experience; although it's good, i feel we need to go up a notch in our worship. Having said that there's also the place where u just submit to what's required by the church, and you pray God keeps you going.

I'm not one who excels well at starting again. It's a painful process starting at 0 again. i want to be at 9, but there's 8 numbers in between. Long way to go and to learn...

I don't want trials, i want the real deal!

As a Bee

2010-03-12T02:24:00.003+11:00

No idea why i've decided to start posting again. Probably coz no one actually reads this anymore. I agree thats it's been PRETTY dead considering it's been a year since my last post.

But hey, it's been busy (hence the title :D ) ...

So maybe i'll start writing again, maybe not; maybe i'll just post something similar in a years time

But maybe the reason i've not really posted is coz i didn't think there was much to write about. Last year was dry, a year of searching and not finding, a year i wished i'd settle earlier at where i eventually ended up, sort of a year wasted.

Church is great, don't get me wrong. But i expected so much more in terms of culture and spirit and attitude. But i understand now its not about finding My kind of church, it's about HIS way of doing it.

Loving ACTS and loving the people who make it great. I pray that He'll guide me and keep me where HE wants me to be.

Whoa ok enough rambling for the first-post-after-so-long. Thank God It's FRIDAY!!!

p.s.

It's actually been TWO YEARS!!! Gosh doesn't Blogger close down these blogs?!?!? lol

The great wait

2008-01-25T02:23:00.000+11:00

It's been forever! i'm still waiting for my friggin net to be installed. And they say things work much faster here - yeah right!

Then again, there's nothing to blog about. NOTHING! it's either my life is truly as mundane as i make it out to be, or i've just become desensitized to everything thats happening around me. i'm starting to think it's the latter. I guess it's just the side effects of getting older, which im starting to dread - less then a month to go...

It's just frustrating that things are just so slow. Friends i've used to hang out with don't seem to enjoy what u enjoy anymore, and u realize its just everyone growing up. i sometimes just want to do a peter pan and stay in school/uni forever, be able to play games when i want, sleep in when i feel it, and go meet up with people as i please. So many good things associated with being young, yet, there's this basic instinct to move on, to grow up, to fall in love, to get on with life. I'm at the stage where i can't decide what i want.

Growing up time :)

on another note, i'm glad i've got certain friends who i enjoy just chilling with, and being comfortable in thier company. i know my holidays will be over soon, ad we haven't done the whole "Guitar Hero" thing, but i'm glad for the things we DID do - the Scrubs marathon, the countless lunches and dinners, the random chill-outs here and there. Im excited to see what God brings you into this year, and i know the move is a big one, but remember it's not a step backwards, it's all about wht we make of it :)

And to those who feel i'm trying too hard - i guess i am! hope it doesn't freak you out, but i truly treasure our friendship and we're gonna have an awesome yr this yr hehe

Back to work on Tuesday...in a sadistic kinda way, i'm actually glad !

Gee, i AM getting old

Relief

2007-10-17T12:38:00.000+10:00

I've just come out of the MOST stressful period i have been through in my ENtire life...period. The last 3 weeks have been CrAzY, due to my 70% design project that was really worrying me. I just stepped into the library after a dissapointing demonstration session, and i'm just thinking back on the last 12 weeks (yes i started on week one) of work seemingly gone down the drain.

Just a mere 12 hrs before, we had it recognizing shapes and turning at near 90 degree turns. We then decided to improve it by making it near-perfect, a decision that brought the downfall of the bot, and thus leaving us with only left turns, and ONE right. Man, it was embarrasing because our group was expected to do well. Our lecturer, who was taking care of our group had HIGH hopes that it would work. Couldn't stand standing there seeing the look on his face... :(

But i must say, i felt His peace there. Yes there were times i was on the verge of screaming my head off and running around in circles pulling my hair, but he kept me sane : to the 3-4 all nighters i had to endure, through the 'tense' moments we had in the group (not many btw) and the countless hours i spent trapped in the lab. It does count for something - i did my best, and i did it to please Him above all.

Now it's back to life. i'm just so glad the pressure is off; but i do feel guilty for not performing. i feel guitly for dropping a lot of things, including responsibilities, friends, other important stuff to complete some design project. i should have known better...

i need sleep!

My day today

2007-09-16T00:31:00.000+10:00

I had a good day. I wonder why i've stopped 'enjoying' my Saturdays anymore, but today was a change for the better :)

We played tennis in the morning...it's been 7-8 months, and it felt good. We comprises of Andrew, Ivie, Richard, Charlene, Bryan and myself. We started at 8 am, and although some of em found it hard to get themselves out of bed in the morning, we all still got there eventually. Playing again was really good, although i have a feeling i was a bit enthusiastic at hitting the balls, that i was a bit TOO aggressive. sorry if i cam across that way, honestly i loved having someone to play with.

Andrew, please start practicing the 'throws'. Remember it's straight up, not in front or behind. hehe :P but ur doing good. Ivie, KLANG BOLEH! hehe. Char, you've got a scary serve girl. The time when i really started to get a real workout was when we played that singles game. Keep it up! Richard i didn't know u were injured! i feel bad for making u run around LOL. And Bryan, we won 2 matches as doubles partners right? Rock on!

Then we decided to crash Peggen's UL BBQ (i still felt like i was crashing although Li invited me, and my UL WAS supposed to go anwy). Had a lot of fun BBQing and talking to so many people. Glad that the Caulfield contingent came down as well =). Special shoutout to Pris, Si Yan, Aaron and Hau Wei.

Then i went home and slept. But that's after my daily dose of RPK's blog. I sometimes feel guilty reading the posts, because its very political, but i'm really interested in the state and condition of the nation at this point, and my goodness, its amazing what you learn when u actually want to find stuff out.

Woke up at 6, Daniel came over for dinner. Watched the Hawks take on the the Kangaroos. Not an extremely good game, but it was ok. glad i had someone to have dinner with and just chill :)

And just want to say a heartfelt thanks to MissE** for being super duper honest with me about stuff. Honestly, now i see where i need to improve myself, and i think i need to find more friends who are not afraid to tell it to my face. i'm a better person (or on the way to becoming one) because of you, so thanks :)

Not as they seem

2007-08-27T22:36:00.000+10:00

Some things are not as they seem...

I must admit that i love reading people - as in, even before someone comes up to me to say Hi, i can tell what kind of conversation is going to ensue. No, it's not preconceived ideas about someone, rather it's to prepare me for the conversation that will happen.

But i do get it wrong sometimes. Things that u thought u liked about someone suddenly disappears once you get to know em better. It's like, that perfect someone has flaws, seemingly. Not to say that we should look for perfect people, and discard those who are not to your expectations, but to some degree, it's a bit of a letdown, coz when u finally thought you discovered someone you think is WAY up there, you realize they are human in any case...

But aren't we all? That's what makes me me in a sense, our downfalls. But i realized that there are some CORE things that need to be high standard, and everything else is just trivial in comparison. Some things that i feel is a must are:

a) a heart of worship
b) Godly discipline
c) great sense of communication
d) honesty

among other things. The thing is, it doesn't matter if the tiny flaws ruin the so-called "perfect" picture, as long as they have thier fundamentals right, those are the type of people i want to be around, to love, to cherish and to do life with.

Ok enough babbling... I really want to blog about my encounter with Brookie, but im gonna wait for the pics and vids to come first :D

I *heart* Brooke! She's so awesome hehe

Oh and a shout out to my amazing cell leaders and committee in OCF. I know this month has been a trying and difficult period for all of you, but im glad you guys are pulling through and really supporting the vision WE have for this ministry. Thanks so much guys and girls!!

Take a minute

2007-08-21T19:50:00.000+10:00

Now, you've NEVER seen me post many pictures on my blog, let alone a video.

But when i saw this, i actually cried. It really reminded me of how things have been the last couple of weeks. Jesus is just amazing :)

So just take a moment, and watch it, you won't regret i promise. Watch out for 3:45, it just hit me so hard, that He want's us back so badly :)

Oh and btw, the song is Everything, by Lifehouse.

Yay!

2007-08-20T21:20:00.001+10:00

Feeling much better!!

I can see my mountaintop again. I can see how my God is going to save the day. I've finally cleared the fog and crap that's been in the way, and i think it's really apt timing.

I knew it was coming, just a matter of when and how i was to get here. To be honest, i've got this 10% assignment i don't have a clue how to finish at the moment, but i know God will make a way somehow, of that i'm certain.

Here's a couple of shoutours (to people whom i THINK still read my blog:

Miss Evo: im suffering from MSN withdrawal symptoms :( includes total boredom and random words to myself. even my fingers just feel like typing something,,, ish, But 7th Sept ain't long to go :) hope things are ok in the land of MSN. thanks for still being there to listen hehe altho my probs seem to go around in circles :P. oh btw, ur AWESOME in God's sight, and it's GREAT that you're a CHAMPION hehehehe :P

Mr. President: Congrats, you've finally became the boss haha. Looking forward to what ur about to do :)

Mum and Dad: Can't wait to get home. Miss the food :P

Random OCF people: somehow i'm not sure who would still read this, but drop me a comment if you did. And guys, can't wait for laser tag mmmhmmmmmm :)

Miss 'I don't wash plates without gloves': You KNOW i'm never letting this go :P just kidding k? you'll have tonnes of opportunities in the future to prove me wrong hehe

Oh btw, this Sat i'm going to a Brooke Fraser concert!! yay!! thanks so much to Miss T, and of course Justin's kindness, i'm all set to see her LIVE. Life's getting good :)

In the valley

2007-08-16T22:06:00.000+10:00

Man this is tough...

Nothing i've ever experienced before. You think sometimes you're strong enough, that you are capable of doing things that by far seem easy peasy to you. But what happens when you find out

"you're not"

strong enough and that

"you're not"

capable of doing everything on your plate. So what DO you do?

"Start pushing things off the plate..."

I'm no quitter. i hate it when people say "Oh she quit OCF" or "He quit serving in church". i think the only time that is true is when you drop something without consulting God first. Yes, God gives you the strength, but he also gives u a desire and passion

So what does it mean when you lose a passion for something?

"Maybe God wants you to focus elsewhere"

Sadly it took me so long to finally realize that maybe i AM weak, and that i AM incapable, but i'm sure as ever that HE is strong, and that HE is capable!

"Phew!"

Maybe once i get that out of the way, like how i neede to get her out of the way, then maybe i'll start dreaming again. It's been awhile since i had dreams...

OR maybe someone else has a dream. i dunno, God uses people to speak to people sometimes.
Can all the dreamers please tell me your dreams, it would really be encouraging :)

Ok i won't ramble on anymore... I need to give Him space to speak, that i may decrease and He increase. Fasting MSN has really helped that :) I just pray that my mountain peak comes soon, and that it comes eventually i am definitely sure...

*Amen*

2007-08-12T12:12:00.000+10:00

It's been awhile...

2 things have compelled me to squeeze in another post

1. A Gift
You never know how much encouragmement helps someone. i'm not gonna lie- i was going through a rough patch the last month or so. And it came to a point where i felt that whatever i did, it wasn't working or in other owrds it was ineffective. Met up with MY on Tuesday coz she wanted to share about mentorship in OCF. that itself was a blessing, that someone wud want to share something out of thier heart. well we were talking, and i somehow mentioned that i lost 2 bibles, and i was using my back-backup bible hehe. And guess what, she being the angel she is got me a new one!! complete with encouragment msg and bible verse in the front. i was really touched by the gift, but what i was really thouched by was the encouragement and love that was in it :) Thanks so much you...

2. Information
Sometimes u wish u didnt receive certain information. but then again, it's actually better that you DO know. thanks for telling me, friend- i know i seem hurt, but im honestly grateful that you cared enough to tell me. that's what makes true friends :)

Jesus im holding on yo You, i pray you give me wisdom on the right things to say, and the right people to speak to, and the right actions at all times. Return to me the joy of my salvation, and renew a right spirit within me...

Amen

YOU

2007-07-13T12:10:00.001+10:00

YOU are my freedom
Jesus YOU're the reason
I'm kneeling again
at YOUr throne

Where would i be
without YOU
here in my life

Thanks for holding my heart together
When I thought it would be crushed
You helped me soar
above the mountain of despair
and through the valley of hopelessness
Into Your rest

I'm ready and I know You are too
Since eternity
Take my hand

No idea what to call this post

2007-06-17T01:35:00.000+10:00

I think God deserves so so much praise for what's been happening recently. The way i've come through in terms of my grades has amazed me. I can see how He brings people along my way to tell me the things i need to know, and those which i don't. The friends who have helped me through have been amazing! thanks so much guys. So, i'm confident to say...

ECE3073 and evil twin ECE3093, you're going down!!

hehehe....

Ok now for the serious part, recently one of my committee members had to go home to Singapore, and to cut the story short, she lost someone really dear back home. I can't help but imagine what she goes through, or what kind of thoughts might be filling her mind. I can imagine the bitterness, the sorrow, the hopelessness of the situation. Being in Melbourne, i can only wait for time to take it's effect, and in the mean time pray that she'll make it through...

Sher, i know you'll see the light at the end of the tunnel, i know you'll find joy in the midst of suffering, cause He has given us the oil of joy instead of mourning, of hope instead of despair. Praying for you, and i really really do miss you (and your 'loudness') :)

It's been awhile since i've played the keys. I feel like a part of me is missing. I miss my baby (currently its tucked somewhere in Pano). Crap la....

On a brighter note, we're gonna have a KLANG gathering soon!!! hehehe... The bakuteh geng is back! =)

Ok i know the randomness of this post is getting to you guys, so i'll stop here hahha.

Oh and come for WInter CamP 2007!!

It's crunch time!

2007-06-03T22:16:00.000+10:00

So it begins ... 3 weeks of slaving over exams ans stuff...

To be honest, this exam period will be the most stressed out one i've ever been in so far. My internals look as if they have been shot. I'm really scared that i might come close to failing a subject this sem :(

But He that is in me is greater than he who is in the world. I know the bible's talking abt the devil, but i also remember that I AM in this world as well. And i guess this means that God's greater then the best i can be on my own...

That's comforting to hear :)

Blogging's difficult

2007-05-31T00:10:00.000+10:00

It's been so hard to find something to blog about! urgh, every time i come to my blogger, i just stare at it until i give up and close the window! life has been busy recently, exams and all the regular stuff, that there's nothing blog-worthy as such...

I'm just looking forward to three things - Winter Camp, Hillsongs Sydney, and spending a one week break in Adelaide with Jin. Bro, ur gonna be so full of my rantings and ravings by the time my trip is over ehehe... but God bless you for offering to put me up (more like put up with me :) )

I've got a 3000 word report due in 2 days, IN WEEK THIRTEEN! URGH!!!!

I notice something nowdays - more people are coming to the library! It's a good thing tho, studying with friends is awesome (of course to some, it can be VERY distracting *glare*). I wanna start making coffee in the library again =)

5 sounds i like the most

2007-05-17T17:21:00.000+10:00

5. Morning talk
arguably, i miss this the most out of the 5. the story goes, when i still used to be back in Klang, on a Saturday mornings mostly, i used to laze in bed till it was late in the morning. And my parents being who they are, would wake up at 'decent' times. And my dad would either be doing some house repairs or what not, or busily chatting over breakfast. whatever it is, the sound of his voice as i lay there in my bed gave me a sense of 'family'. cause i knew when i got out of bed and went downstairs, i was going down to people i loved and who made me feel comfortable. really miss this sound now... :(

4.The sound hot water makes when you pour it into your cup
I really love this! It's that gurgling sound we all know - it's really therapeutic haha. I think its a preview to the warmness you're gonna experiance when u finally get to drink what ur making in the first place hahaha. Get this a lot (coz i drink a lot of coffee =) )

3.The sound of rain on my window
Curled up in my chair, with my blanket over me, sipping that cup of coffee (refer to no.4), the soft patter of rain drops on my window really makes me feel awesome. I'm one of the only people i know how loooooves rainy days, beacause all you do is stay home and stare at the wet outside and just being thankful i have somewhere dry and warm to be...

2. Music
this is my passion, coz this is what i use to worship my God with hehe. But beyond that, music really gets to me. It's not a filler, not some background thing - i NEED music. It drives me, it encourages me, it's part of me. And worship is just awesome :) i'm currently in love with 'Stop this train' by John Mayer *mmmmmm*

1. Your voice
Nothing needs to be said ... =)

Why the British think 80% of M'sians coming to UK to study law

2007-05-08T17:25:00.000+10:00

I got this in my email this morning...

UK Immigration Officer: Purpose of visit?
Visitor: I'm here to study law, sir.
Officer: You know, you must have a lot of lawyers in Malaysia .
Visitor: Why do you say that?
Officer: Well, i've been here for a good twenty years, and I'd say
80% of Malaysians I see here say they're here to read law.
Visitor: Oh, really? That's really something i never knew. Hard to
believe in fact.

Officer: Just you watch, then. You just stand here until the next
Malaysian comes along, and I'll bet he's here to read law.

*Visitor waits for 5 mins, Ah Chong from Malaysia comes to
immigration counter*

Officer: Mr. Ah Chong, purpose of visit?

Ah Chong: Study lorr...

! L.O.L !

Thanks Lisa!! This really made my day "lorr"....

Hahahahaha

(=

Time to go

2007-05-01T00:34:00.000+10:00

He glanced at his watch, and nervously shifted in his seat. 1:08 . He caught a whiff of stale filtered coffee that could well have been a 100 years old coming from the stained carpet of the waiting room. He never imagined it would come to this. How things worked out the way it did. How wrong he could have been.

His breathing started to become heavier as he leaned over and reached out for the magazine on the table opposite him. 1.09 He stared at it for awhile, but he knew he wasn't gonna read, no matter how hard he tries. He was too distracted, too nervous. Coming to think of it, he couldn't bring himself to think about anything else; he threw the mag down hard on the table. His heart started to beat faster as he glanced at his watch again, the seconds hand hand ticking away. why does time take time? he asked as it made it's way, slowly past the number 10. only 10 more seconds till....

*1:10*He dragged himself off the chair and started pacing the room. the floorboards squeaked under his weight, almost sounding like a symphony of squeaks. he loved listening to symphonies. in fact, when he was young, his dad used to take this bright eyed kid to the great philharmonics. he would sit in awe of how different instruments were made differently, but yet they all served the same purpose - that of the conductor. his favorite was the tuba, not only because it was the biggest darn instrument you could find, but also because it made this reverberating low sound that could travel for miles even. the tuba player person would usually be idle for long periods of the symphony, but when his time came, he would pick it up and blow...

1:12

He snapped as he heard the door handle turn. The silence was broken finally. It swung open, almost effortlessly, as if someone over-greased the hinges, as if there was a door troll pulling the door open - you know what door trolls are, they live behind doors and make creaking noises to scare the heck out of you, especially at night.when he was a little kid, he really didn't wanna see a troll, cause his mom used to tell him that they could be nasty creatures, and they did nasty things to naughty little boys. but he didn't believe in them now, so they can't be real...

she stepped in. he couldn't wait any longer. he had to tell her. he had been rehearsing this in his head for ages, but all of a sudden the words started to scramble themselves up. She looked so beautiful from where she was standing, the light from the next room streaming in from behind her. his knees turned to jelly, and he could feel his heart beating at a gazillion beats a minute. she stared at him, ans their eyes met. he finally braved himself and opened his mouth to speak. "I ..."

1:13

time to let it out. time to move on. time to go

I heart Brooke!

2007-04-25T09:01:00.000+10:00

Keith!!!! You JUST had to tell me about Brooke's concert....

It's all SOLD OUT!

Both the Melbourne ones have gone quickly, now the only ones left are Adelaide and Brisbane. Grrrr*

OH well, maybe next year. hopefully be then i'll still *heart* Brooke Fraser :D

The winter camp committee is coming soon to eat breakkie. I sorta cooked chicken curry yesterday, and i'm anxious to see how it will taste later. I even called mum specially to ask for the recipe. oh yeah, mum i found the 'tumbuk' thing, i think my previous housemate left it behind. hehehe

i *heart* cooking for people
i *heart* keeping a clean house

i*heart* You

=)

Why

2007-04-20T09:05:00.001+10:00

Ever wondered why when you finally started doing things right, things seem to turn out wrong all of a sudden?

Why God, why?

=(

Albertine

2007-04-19T10:16:00.001+10:00

I am sitting still

I think of Angelique
her mothers voice over me
And the bullets in the wall where it fell silent
And on a thousandth hill, I think of Albertine
there in her eyes what i don't see with my own
Rwanda

*chorus*
now that i have seen, I am responsible
Faith without deeds with dead
now that i have held you in my own arms, I cannot let go till you are

I am on a plane across a distant sea
But i carry you in me
and the dust on, the dust on, the dust on my feet
Rwanda

I will tell the world, I will tell them where I've been
I will keep my word
I will tell them Albertine

To the people I love...

2007-04-17T23:39:00.000+10:00

I realize i'm so blessed to be surrounded by people who love and support me. i find i rarely ever tell them so, i rarely ever show them by getting them stuff that i appreciate what they have done in my life.

For example, i'm really glad to be able to know "these" bunch of people... The crazy people of Clayton... RAWR!!

- Clayton 07 -

And being more specific, I LOVE my CELL GROUP. We named ourself EVOL, not because were the opposite of love (might be some truth in that tho) but because were REFLECTING God's love! i really enjoyed having eggplant chips and pizza and strolling to Tiamo's for Jamaican pancakes (it was brilliant Jack :) ) and then doing stupid things with flashy lights at St. Kilda beach. So sorry i dragged u all to keep doing the write-with-light-and-capture-with-camera thing for so long, but i think we really got some good pictures :D

GO EVOL!!

I need to go get new jumpers hehe. i think some people are just sick of seeing me in the same ones over and over. But i can't help it, coz the people who bought it mean a lot to me, and it's really my favouritest thing to wear in the world. and to the person who picked it out, thanks for making me look good =)

Gosh next time better use flash ...

Just got back from Easter Camp a week ago. And u know how we always got post-camp blues (Hau Wei if ur reading this, remember last year?? hehe) , but this year i was confident i could keep it together. And i did! even as we left the campsite, and we drove back to Clayton , i was doing ok. We stopped by at Glen to eat dinner, and we met the Melb Uni guys. I was still ok , even tho meeting them really made me miss camp a tinny little bit. But when Ms. Tng tried to surprise me thru the window of Rock Kung, i suddenly felt like i really missed EVERYONE at camp!! Why do u guys have to be so darn fun?!?!? WHY!?!?!

Tng and me (one of the few who wudn't wear the camp tshirt)

This is one of the only few pics i have from camp. Muz go find somemore!!! MUST MUST MUST
Well back to uni for now, a lot of things to look forward to la actually and i'm very excited!

=)

Honoured!

2007-03-02T10:37:00.000+11:00

OK fine... my last post was a disaster....the 7 things turned out to be just 2. i didn't have time for the other 2! the rest of the week was spent preparing for orientation and retreat! i did celebrate it a week later with some close friends which was good!

Busy-ness has taken over me, Work has really distracted me the last 2 weeks. We had orientation, leaders retreat, committee meetings, this and that and this and that i'm almost going nuts. But even so, it has been a VERY eventful week or 2 for me. And i wouldn't trade serving in His Kingdom for the world :)

on Thursday night i got a chance to take a break. someone i didn't expect invited me to his birthday party sorta thingy. and it was in KOKO black! for those who don't know, it's this really good CHOCOlate place down at lygon. and u KNOW MY EYES LIT UP like a Christmas tree when i got invited hahaha :D oh btw... HAPPY 21ST WAI HONG!!

But the thing that really got to me was how he chose who came. he was telling me that he listed ALL of his friends and rated them from 1 to 5. he said he only invited 4 and 5s. like WOW! i really felt honoured to be there!! not because i think im great being rated a 4 or 5, but its coz someone was impacted by my friendship. that's my goal for this year - to impact people to a point that thier life is changed and a difference is made - so much so that they wud invite me to thier birthday parties!!! (juz kidding :P)

I didn't really take pics, but i'll post the TWO that i have... sheesh i should start taking pics more hehe. Mich said she would pass me more when she finished editing. the problem was, the room was quite dark, and i sat in the darkest corner and had a cap on...:S. anwys, here's what a hot chocolate at KB looks like...

lemme tell you, it's the heavenliest things in the world... =)

this is another random picture of Wai Hong saying something. notice how dark it is hahaha...

besides sipping hot choc at KB, other things have been happening as well. i'm excited to see what God has in store for me. only he knows my hearts desires and the times i've cried out for them. i know logically some things are impossible, but my God is a 'nothing is impossible' God :)
just waiting, like i always do, for the right moment ... but i feel it coming, somehow, sometime soon...

=)

7 things i wanna do before i turn 21

2007-02-13T16:51:00.000+11:00

Ok so i'm getting older....and you know 21 is significant, coz it's ur 'entry' into adulthood. plus u finally have to be responsible for the trouble u get urself into. but you know, as i enjoy my last week of being a non-21-yr-old, i came up with a list of 7 things i do wanna do before i turn 21!

7. Get a crew cut
Ok fine i know ur thinking "but u cud get that even if ur 21...", but since i needed a haircut, and did not have anything else to add to my list, i guess this counts. oh, a picture will be posted soon hehehe...

6. Eat Strawberry Cornflakes!
i was in coles last week and i saw this kelloggs cornflakes, and it was in strawberry flavour!! what better way to live out ur childhood than cornflakes and better yet, strawberry cornflakes! i just finished my first bowl, and the best part of it all is the strawberry flavoured milk that gets left behind....YUMMM!! oooooh i miss my childhood already!! hehehehehe

I'll update one item everyday from now till my birthday (thats also coz i need to think of things to do!!!)

=)

Finally He said...

2007-02-06T02:23:00.000+11:00

It feels right now... I'm back to blogging!

Loads have happened since i last posted the 'pink' post. And i mean loads. But i guess the most significant of all is the answer He finally gave me. didn't you ever have this burning question you were seeking God for, and finally after suffering so long thinking about things, and considering your options, he comes and makes is SO SO clear to you.

I must be honest i'm finding it hard to accept. sometimes i try to reason myself out of it. maybe i wasn't hearing right, maybe i interpreted wrong, maybe i'm not thinking straight. but i must be completely honest and say that it never felt right, maybe it never will. and you know, He's got it all covered; everything im living for is in His hands. Thats the promise i make...

Sorry for yesterday, you need to know i felt bad...

i'm addicted to series nowdays. that includes:
1) Prison break
2) House
3) How i met your mother
4) My name is Earl
5) Everybody hates Chris
6) Ugly Betty
7) Heroes

and they are keeping me occupied... i've got the dates for the next episode release for each of these on the whiteboard in my room. and torrent-ing rocks! hehe....

Well so much for coming back to blogging. who knows if anyone still reads my blog nowdays. it's always been a drag, remembering the promise i made God when i did start blogging. maybe i should break outta prison or something...dat wud be AWESOME blog material...

Pretty in Pink!

2006-12-09T23:35:00.000+11:00

Yes, i finally did it. Something i said i would never do...

I WORE PINK!

But they made me do it! These guys are the VicChair band for Convy 2006 ...
From Left: Priscilla, Myself, Lucien, Vincent, Tee, Raymond, Wang Wei, Aaron and Steven

Yes i felt ReAlLy weird in pink mind you...coz i have NEVER used pink, and i've always told people i would never wear it...but when the guys decided to wear pink i knew i had no choice. But on the contrary, people told me i looked good in pink, so i guess i wasnt that bad hehehehe ... or maybe they were trying to be kind (or cheeky) :D

The band in action.... we DO look good aahaahhaha

to be honest, i only bought the thsirt coz this was the guy who designed it. Vincent, i LOVED the way you played that night. it muz have really stunned quite a few ppl, but i really enjoyed myself hahahah

And Tee, it was great playing in the same band again (although u weren't playing drums like at EC), i i really enjoyed juz playing like crazy for the KING of KINGS! :D

Enjoy ur holidays everyone! Really miss you convy guys so so so much.... Ohhhh and a special shout out to my Awesome Cell Group ... GO PAUL!

From Left: Lisa, Lydea (my cool co-leader :D), Thomas, Max, Amanda, Hubert, ME, Grace
Not in pic: Alvin Tjipto, Peter Marlins, Sarah

MISS you guys so so so much....:(

Convy Convy Convy!!!

2006-12-01T10:17:00.000+11:00

Im going to the

47th OCF Convention 2006!!!

Gonna have fun fun fun fun...

I pity those who have to go for classes or work (winks at li and dan hehehe) during the next week, and miss out on this awesome event hehehehehe.

See ya guys in a week! :D

Christmas Par-tay!

2006-11-28T02:11:00.000+11:00

I LOVVVEEEEE Christmas!!!

Our Urban Life's had a combined christmas party last week and it was soo aweeesommee. The food was just so delicious. Check out the smoked ham and turkey (fyi i roasted the ham!)

And everyone was dressed up in different colours... It was just a mayhem of colours!!!

Back to food again... Some people tried to talk me out of eating too much...

but they couldn't ....coz it's christmas!!! hhehehehe

We also had a gift exchange...and we played a game to see who got which gift... And at first, i got this awesome lamp!!

but then the game was, that you could steal someone else's present, and this happened...

Chloe stole my prezzie!! Look at the people around her, laughing so evil-ly....*grrrrr*

But it was ok coz the next present i got were sweets.... *grin*

Other things that happened during the par-tay were:

worship... (eh the keyboard player so macho wei...)

Carolling! (Andrew looks so silly that's he's actually cute hahaha)

and other random stuff....Heck it was so good that even these folks joined us...

the city people!! Hope u guys had fun :D

And finally some after-par-tay pictures....

wah naughty naughty!!! wei sern looks so happy ahahahhaha...nola...:P

Anwys...finally, from the very bottom of my heart, mr. wombat and i just want to wish you...

A VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Clarity

2006-11-23T03:38:00.000+11:00

I can't explain the way i've felt in the last couple of days or so. it's just so....bluek!

I need to talk about it... i mean i CAN go on living this way, but i need to get it out. i need to clear the air, need to know which path to take. OR i can go on living like this, and pretend nothing's happening.

Decisions...

Clarity

Get better soon!

2006-11-21T01:37:00.000+11:00

Woke up this morning, went to Clayton, got a haircut.

Li wasn't feeling well, so i stopped by at the Asian grocers to get her some barley. Went with Dan to her place in the afternoon, and i persuaded ( more like conned) them into watching 'Hide and Seek' , you know the one with Dakota Fanning. Anwy it was a realllyyy freakky movie, and i thought the twist in the end was really really good. Hope those two aren't freaked out by the movie...(well, daniel stayed over at my place that night, so i have a reason to believe he was scared hahaha)

And Li... hope u get well soon! Don't like seeing u sick and all....Ur less noisy when u are! hahaha

I need blog-spiration la... Haven't found my blogging form yet...:(

ONE MORE DAY TO GO!!!

2006-11-07T10:31:00.000+11:00

Yes that's right....

ONE MORE DAY!!

For those of you students who have taken exams before, i know you understand how it feels to do the VERY last paper of ur exam period. You know.... the one where the moment the invigilator says 'ok you can leave', you feel like jumping up and running out the door screaming ur head of. And didya realize that they take the LONGest time to let you out when it comes to the last papeR??? Gosh maybe it's juz me....but you know you can't wait to get outta there...

ONE MORE ONE MORE ONE MORE ONE MORE

And this weekend... loads of thigns happening. to start it off, there's thanksgiving!! It's gonna be soo super duper fun i can't wait for it hehe. And i just know DG has the funniest/best/most original skit ever, so watch out rest of you!! Not really worrying about what to wear (perks of being a guy), but juz need to find something RED now....HmMmMmM

And then on Saturday is someone-very-special's birthday.... SOMEONE's 21!!! hahaha yes Li is 21 this Saturday... everyone buy her prezzies!!! and hopefully i will get to share it... hahahaha .... i mean if the prezzy is food or something ... if anything else dowan la :P

It's raining outside... i kinda love days like this coz it only can get BETTER. and that just gives me hope.... especially for my paper tmr. which reminds me...

I GOTTA GO STUDY!!!

Bless ya guys!

3 more days...

2006-11-05T20:40:00.000+11:00

Just THREE more days to go...and it'll all be over!!

I'm so stressed now i can't describe it. But i know it's necessary, coz i can't slack, especially at this point.... But seriously this feeling is new to me, never ever has it been this bad...

Switching is gonna kill!! I hope tmr when i get back to blog i will be able to say it isn't...i HOPE i HOPE i HOPE!

I'm rambling....i better stop...

Can't wait for thanksgiving....Been looking forward to this for a long time!!

:D

It's on Wednesday!!

2006-10-30T01:38:00.000+11:00

I think this exam period has been one of my most slack....on thursday i had a maths exam, and i

FORGOT TO WRITE DOWN MY SEAT NUMBER!!

What's wrong with you Jonathan Raj?! i really couldn't believe myself. before this, i used to almost memorize the numbers going into an exam, being so paranoid after worrying about my papers. This sem has been different, even during the lead up to exam time, it's been reaaaally slack!

And then there's emag. I always thought e-mag was on the Thursday, so on Sunday i thought...."hmmm 3 full days to study, no worries!"...mana tahu i checked my time table just now and it was on Wednesday!!! #@!$#$**#@$#*#@(

Sorry la not used to taking exams so lightly. i used to be obssessed with performing well and setting a standard for myself. But i realized that the standard i was setting was for my own gain, to glorify myself and to attain approval from others. Now i see it as secondary, and i guess im LESS obssessed with getting hD's and stuff....but it doesn't mean i'm to slack! I'm sure God delights when his children excel in the things of the world...we were meant to be leaders, conquerers, and thats what i plan to be :D

Before i get back to cramming for my paper this Wednesday, i just want to do something i said i would a loooong time ago hehehe....This is one of my bestest friends in the whole wide world, and jus thought i wud honor her on my blog (and since she asked me to :P...nola nola) ...

Ms. Alison Seow!

Thanks SOOO much for being there when i needed someone to talk to. Your company and advice did help me loads! and i know i can ramble on and on about stuff, but you would never tell my im being silly, or that i talk too much...honestly you've been a gem, and i really hope u get well soon....And stop going around doing splits everywhere u go k? :D

I miss those days where we wud go for teas and breakfasts with Tony and juz hang out.... i miss going to accounts tuition and being identified as 'laura's friend' all the time hehe.... i miss the way ur dogs always bark when i come pick u up (those dogs are racist i tell you hehehehe) and i seriously miss the way you make me feel like a person, from the friendship and love and care you offer as a friend. God bless you girl!!

Get well soon k!!!!! :D

One of those days

2006-10-27T00:38:00.000+10:00

I'm not gonna hide it.... i feel crappy!!!

Just had a Maths paper his afternoon, and to be honest it was one of the easier papers i've done during my time here in uni (i'm not bragging or anything, but it wasnt as hard as i expected). but even then, upon coming home, and even now sitting up and typing this blog, i feel like i could juz DIE. Oh btw, my net came back to life, and i SHOULD be happy about it, but i'm not!!

ARGHHH!!!

it sucks when u feel crappy but u don't know why u feel crappy. it's like....urgh something unexplainable u wish u have control of. Coz den at least how u feel with be somewhat controllable, to a certain degree. But u knoe, it's during these times that real faith is tested. when u don't feel like it at all, would you still praise? would you still worship? would you still submit to His awesome plan?

Difficult... but i realize recently that that's all i have left to hang on to. there's never a moment anymore where i go "ok i wanna do this this and this instead of what He wants me to do". in a sense, i think i've learnt to place my will secondary to His. i think my problem is now, knowing His will, actually accomplishing it. i know what has to be done, but im not doing it....how to help la this kinda ppl...hehe

i'm gonna sleep now... Jesus when i wake up in the morning, i ask for the awesomest smile and the cheerful-est attitude the moment i step out of my house. May i encourage the people i meet, and bless and speak into people's life tmr. Don't wanna let my emotions and feelings control how i operate. Living in MY promise, no stinking feelings are gonna rob me of that :D

-Amen-

Busy busy busy

2006-10-23T18:27:00.000+10:00

Man i've been soo flippin busy...

BUT IT'S ALL GONNA END SOON!

2 weeks more man....and i'm done....

Starting to get 'Comfortable' perfected now...it's taking a toll on my fingers ( and my study time i must say). ws listening to joehn mayer's commentrt track of the birmingham concert and he said that that song was one of the hardest song he ever wrote, and that he needs to concentrate really really hard when he plays it coz he doesn't wanna get it wrong. But it's like such a great song, he said he'd most liley never write anything like it ever again....

You can tell i have nothing to blog about....but i do! the reason i'm not blogging abt it is....

a) No flippin time
b) My flippin modem died, so i've got no net....(which equates to no MSN! :( )
c) Regular flippin lazinesss....

This has got to be the boringest post i ever posted....

Till after exams....

=O)

I feel like a Hot Choc!

2006-10-06T17:05:00.000+10:00

KOKO BLACK is HEAVEN!

Oh my darling! Can't wait to have u again....hehehe

This cup of hot choc is easily the BEST i've ever tasted, and i wud say the best in the whole city of Melbourne...so far that is hehe

Been really busy lately, with exams and assignments and stuff, and i've neglected my blogging duties. Oh well... will update soon...loads going on inside, taking it one step at a time with Him in d lead :D

In the mean time....*can't wait for hot choccccc*

It's about time

2006-10-01T02:20:00.000+10:00

Jesus is worthy

Worthy of all our praise
He is worthy
Worthy of ALL our praise

When things and situations in life start to drag you down, all you've got to do is

GLORIFY HIM!

When u feel all hope is lost, and there's no one you can turn to,

PRAISE HIM!

When it get's really really tough, and you feel like crying but you just cant,

WORSHIP HIM!

When things don't go the way u planned it, and you feel like a failure,

Time to go to the Secret Place

Drowning myself in worship helps heaps. Today i forgot, for one split second to give him praise, and see what has happened....

DISASTER!

Keep praising, keep worshipping, keep honoring, keep obeying, keep loving...

My Jesus!

Sern Yi's here!

2006-09-29T00:46:00.000+10:00

Actually it should be titled Sern Yi WAS here....hahaha

YES he actually finally arrived! He told me he was gonna come more than a YEAR ago, but never showed up - until now! He actually flew in from Tazzy this morning, so since it was a holiday.... me and Li decided to go down to the city to "entertain" him hahaha :D

Well before we got there....we tried to come up of a list of things to do with him when he's here....and this was as far as we got :

1. Bring him to KOK
2. Go down to St. Kilda beach
3.Err...

We're talking about MELBOURNE here ok!!! Supposed to be the most happening place in d known world, but we couldn't think of anything to do!! Actually there were some things we cud have done, but it would have involved $$$ (i.e the Royal Mebourne Show)...and you know us being cheap asians....dowanla!!

Anwy when we met up with him at Vincent's place, to be honest he looked a little shagged. But it was good seeing him again tho (actually it's always good meeting someone from home :D ...right Li??). Anywho, we took him to KOK, and he tried the one and only Egg Chiffon Rice with some kind of Meat...Li and I took crispy pork while SY took BBQ pork ( now guys if i even bother to repeat what kind of dish we had, you have to realize how good it was!!) Then we were bloated, so we took a walk to the MAS office with Vincent to get SY's ticket printed...Man that place reminded me of Msia....long queues and only 3/5 counters open...typical!

Then we headed down to St. Kilda. The weather today was AWESOMEEE!!! We walked along the beach and out to a small pier where we proceeded to taker pictures, Li insisting to take most of em herself like she always does :D. Haven't got any off her so can't post anything for now, will post it soon....we even stopped by at Luna Park to see of there were any cheap rides...the sign up the front threw us off :

0-3 yrs $12.95

3-17 yrs $25.95

18 - ? $35.95

WHAT A RIP OFF!!! even the kids get charged like crazy....we turned and walked straight out of that place.....hahahaha and caught a tram back to Melbourne city...

I dunno what happened, but i guessed Li's girly instincts kicked in, and she wanted to go shopping, so we let her! So as she scurried off, we grabbed a drink and went out to State Library to talk. It's been awhile since i've actually talked to SY, so it was a good time of catching up. And the sun was setting about that time, and it was fun juz watching Melbourne hurry past as people rushed home from work.

We met up with Li again and went to Koko Black....gosh the Hot choc is just sinful, and Li had this wicked looking Ice Choc. SY decided not to have anything, maybe KOK was too much for him hahaha. then we headed back to Vincents, and...

THE DOOR WOULDN'T OPEN!!

We tried and tried to get the door open but it wouldn't! We sort of gave up at one point, and SY asked us to go home...den he leaned on the door and turned the key one more time and the door open! PHEW! so den we headed back to Clayton finally. Could see we were all so so tired, Li especially. i think she was also sien with us just being us hahaha. Met Lisa and Winston at Huntingdale who graciously gave us a lift back, den Li finally drove us home, but not wiithout stopping for some pizza first hehehehe Malaysians will be Malaysians :D.

All in all it was a fantabulous day!! Had fun with the two of them, and Vincent too when he was with us :D Thanks SY for cheering me up by coming here, even if it was only for a day, and thanks Li for making the trip so much more fun fun fun....and we finally got to Koko Black! but not satisfied...we need to go to Chaddy one...i think got more variety or something....one day la, we still need to get rid of the Hoyts tickets :(

I'm going fishing tmr!!! Gonna have more fun fun fun....And i've already dedicated my first fish i catch (IF i even catch anything) to someone....so hopefully i do catch something! happy studying u! :D

[if i don't get any fish, i'll go get strawberries from Coles la k hehehehehe :P]

My pastor raps!!

2006-09-24T01:11:00.000+10:00

City Church is officially the COOLEST church in the whole entire world!

Ps. Matt rapped!!! and he did a fantastic job at that hehehe (Ps Matt if ur ever reading this blog, as u claim u do during discipleships haha then ur one awesome dude. thanks for always insipring me to think greater than what i am :D )

So did Russell, Rob, and Sam....they all can rap awesomely!!

The place was going nuts! There was dancing and cool lights all over....sigh sad thats it's all over....

Will blog abt it in more detail soon :D

Can't wait for church tmr....Wanna go JUMP AROUND!!!! :D:D

How Random

2006-09-15T16:28:00.000+10:00

Gotta love those Canadians! =)

For nuts....

2006-09-14T13:04:00.000+10:00

I just thought i would come up with a list of things I COULDN'T DO FOR NUTS!

1. Dance
I'm sooo freaking bad at this. Trust me, the closest thing i do to dancing is when were singing praise songs in church, and were jumping UP AND DOWN!! I mean thats just one dimension dancing man (for you engineering people, it's called movement on the z-axis....O God i need help with Electromag :( ) I mean i only remember ONCE ever trying to ball-room dance or whatever you call it. It was during my first ball back in Sunway, when the dance floor opened for a so brief moment, and my 'date' dragged me to the dance floor. AND IT WAS HORRIBLEEEEE! But she cudn't dance for nuts either, so heh i didn't feel that bad.

Future plans: None at the moment. Don't see the need to do any real dancing in the near future. Mayb my girlfriend/wife wud want me to later on, but i'll just say i'm busy or something haha :D

2. Cook
Here's another thing i really suck but i wished i was way better at. And considering it results in something i'm reallllyyy passionate about, i should be ashamed i'm not as into it as i should be. the few attempts that i have made at learning this art failed terribly. Rice too hard la, curry too spicy la, carrots too soft la......the list goes on and on and on. It's no wonder i always end up and Peg's and Li's place all the time coz those guys ROCK at cooking (yes Li, even you ahahha altho u haven't been cooking in a LONG LONG time). And on my list of things to do for (to) Peggen, No. 3 states "Cook a meal for P.Ewe". I'll get down to it i promiseeeeeeee!

Future Plans: Definitely learn how to cook something, anything... but considering i get catered food, it just throws me of ever learning how to cook. Plus, i was depending on my mom coming down to teach me at the end of the year, but it seems they are not coming...so....

3. Being on time/Attending regularly/ Attending at all - my LECTURES!

I really can't being myself to do this....it's just pointless!!

Future plans: What future??? :D

Actually the list stopped at No. 2, and i couldn't think of anything substantial that i COULDN'T DO FOR NUTS. Maybe someone could help me add to the list ? :P

Back to you

2006-09-11T17:37:00.000+10:00

Back to You by John Mayer

back to you
it always comes around
back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it's too late

over you
I'm never over
over you
something about you
It's just the way you move
the way you move me

I'm so good at forgetting
and I quit every game I've played
but forgive me love
I can't turn and walk away

not this way

The past week has been hectic. Two tests and two assignments in a week. And i've officially started camping (in the library) again!! haha time to bring out the "culprit" (for those who don't know what the culprit is, go read my old posts). Now all i need is some kawan-kawan to camp with me.... Any takers?

Planet Worship is in two weeks. Man i'm really looking forward to it. I always receive so much from events like this, especially when's its run by City Church. Time to get back to my roots in worship :D. Plus, i've got a 'special friend' coming to visit me ard that time. It's gonna be 'interesting' ....hahahahah 0_o

Back to You...i always turn back to You...no matter how many times i turn away, You still wait patiently for me.... Where can i run to hide from Your presence? I'm really sorry for losing sight of my first-born inheritence in You...Help me live each day in that authority and overcome the temptations the evil one flings at me...

God, i'm holding on. It's hard, it's really really hard when i put my faith in u and u alone, but i know that if it is in ur plan for me, it will happen. i'm juz waiting on You...

:)

Along the way

2006-09-05T00:14:00.000+10:00

God puts people along the way to pick u up, brush you off and help you start walking again....

And when people you expect to help don't really help at all, he sends *angels* to your rescue....

Thanks ANGEL, what you told me and the encouragement and prayer you said really lifted me up. I know i may not have helped u the same way in the past, but i'm definitely going to try and be more of a friend in the future.

YOU rock....Remember ya, what you go through today is preparing you for what's to come, and i can see big things coming in times ahead, so get ready!

=)

I remember when....

2006-09-03T00:44:00.000+10:00

i first met this AWESOME family!! Winter Camp 2005...man we were the ultimate cell group...hehehe....

and it was all because of...
Li!! Man what a poser u are hahahahhahaha

this guys also poser man. My bestest friend in ACS ( altho i never really told u :D )....u rock bro!!

i really really miss these two Awesome buddies of mine. u guys remember the old days?? good times :)

we went on this council trip and we did this!!! Crazy bunch of guys i still love to bits hehe....

told u she was a poser (p.s. all her pics on my phone are self taken!!)

when we had YA camp 2005 and we were messing ard with the cam .... miss u heaps GRACE hehe

budak giler ni ah.... aku rindu jugak :)

my favouritest teacher ever!! Ms. Helen!! I miss ur classes... it used to brighten up my day hehe...

poser AGAIN!! at least u took good pics of urself :)

my family...miss u guys heaps :D

these 2 pics have a connection.... will the owner of the candy pink fingernails please come and collect your bubble-gum gangster....*grin*

FARAH AZALEA! Remember when we did this?? Nutto....

man i had too many good times, i couldn't put all of em here. There's so many of u who made an impact on my life....and i can't thank u guys enough.....

Lots of love,

MR. Gorilla Unit himself :D

Doing it alone

2006-09-01T14:04:00.000+10:00

I just realized something today.... I need to get used to doing things alone again...

It's not that i'm trying to be anti-social, or i hate my friends or something.

I LOVE MY FRIENDS!!

They are one of the best things that ever happened to me. They make me who I am today. I wouldn't trade em for the world... but you see there are times when i'm definitely gonna be alone. It's just life, friends can't be around you 24/7, and friends come and go like seasons sometimes. You can't do anything to change that, it just is.

Recently, i've found that if i don't have someone doing stuff with me, i get discouraged too quickly. Maybe it's because i got comfortable when i had people who i was close with around me. it does give u a sense of security, and it sort of validates everything u do coz someone else is doing it alongside you. It's a pity it took me ages to find that out....and the things that i had to go through to realize - sad.

Why sad you say? Coz it wasted LOADS of time i could have used to do something useful. I'm a little ticked off that I was sitting around waiting for someone to join me when i do things. I regret following the crowd, and dreaming of things but never doing anything. I realize that once a promise is given, He will bring it to pass, thats not an issue - the issue is ourselves!

Now to honor someone who DID do it right....

This girl ar...ask her to send me a pic so i can put it on my blog, and she sent me this!! Super duper poser Jane!! haha and she told me she likes this pic coz it's as if she's looking towards God and the light is shining down on her hahahahah joker la u.

Jane, i'm Really Really blessed by your testimony. i still remember when i knew you last year, it would be a miracle to even get 5 words out of ur mouth in one sentence. You were SOOO quiet and timid and shy. But this year.... YOU HAVE GROWN a lot!! And as i told u, u've found out who you are in God, keep listening to Him for direction and what He wants you do in this campus were on :D

I remember putting Jane in charge of follow up and Cross talk at the beginning of the year. It was evident she was listening to the voice of God when she took it up. And i wasn't always there to follow up on her, coz i was busy with other things. But honestly she did more than i ever expected her to. Even without contant support from her leaders, she just kept doing what she was entrusted with without fail. How many people i know would have slowly let complacency and pride come in and lose the joy of serving?

And you know if you are faithfull with the small things, He's gonna give you bigger things. You inspire me Jane, and you are an example of someone who did things even though no one else was gonna do it with u. Keep it up!! Greater things are to comeeee....:D

She makes good cake!!

2006-09-01T01:35:00.001+10:00

THIS TASTED FLIPPIN'LY AWESOME!!!

and introducing the person who made this delicious dessert....

Ms. Quek Hui Li and her Oreo Cheesecake!!!

You've gotta taste it for yourself to find out how GOOD it actually is! The texture and everything was juz perfect and it just melts in your mouth....

Can't wait for the mango version....it's gonna blow ur tastebuds away!!! :D

As a wise man once said..."It doesn't take much to make a man happy...". Kinda forgot who said that (it might have been me tho), but it's true in most ways. THIS certainly made my day man...hahahah

Li you outdid yourself this time!! And next time i won't act as if i'm so surprised that the cake actually came out alright hahahaha :D knew it wud jadi, and it certainly did hehe.

-YaM-

She makes me look good!

2006-08-31T00:51:00.000+10:00

Me and Pegs and Planet Uni camp

This is something i found out.... i LOVE taking pics with Pegs coz somehow i always:

a) smile properly
b) keep my eyes open (unlike the ball pics urgh)
c) have proper body position

Was telling her this, and she said "Maybe it's just me la..."

Well i think ur right!! You make me look Good!! hahahhhaah....when i get married next time always be close by juz in case i need to take pics k? hehe

but i do regret not taking pics at camp with the people there...especially with the Clayton guys and gals :D

and Li we need to take a pic wit d Planet Uni t-shirt gang!!! Mine shrinking wash by wash, so it needs to be soon... (or am i getting bigger??? ) hehehe

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2006-08-29T12:10:00.000+10:00

==postcampblues==

i'm suffering from post camp blues. the last time this happened was when easter camp was over! Man camp was so aweeeeesome i really miss it now. waiting for pegs to send me pics so i can blog abt the awesome time i had. wait till then for the stories la k? :D

==supposedtobeinclass==

i've been skipping class loads. i'm doing it right now! :(( i shouldn't la but it's just so pointless going for class nowdays. seriously got duped by the shiny glossy advertistments i used to get about uni. just doesn't live up to it...

==watchedcrumbs==

just randomly switched on d tv this afternoon and watched this program called CrumbS. it started off as a comedy, but the ending was sooooo freaking emo man. it was abt a family, and how you can get hurt and try and live life without your family because of stuff that happened b4, but realize how much you eventually need em. was sposed to be on my way to uni, but it juz captivated me, and i needed to blog about it :)

==foundadietpartner==

not that i needed one, but i guess it's fun haha. to my *secret* diet partner, WE can do it!! remember our goal ya - hawt!-ER by 29th Sept and eventually hawt! by 29th Oct ahhahahaha. and remember to pray pray pray :D

==youandme==

waiting and wishing (more like praying and trusting :D)
...

==i'mlovinglifehouse==

All in all

Standing on top of the edge it feels like it's going down
Everything stays in my mind feeling in a daze on the ground
Feels like it's gonna give life's to hard to live anymore
I think I've had enough things too tough
I'm out the door

All in all it's just another day now
You're falling down
What you gonna do
Standing on top of the world tonight
No ones looking back at you

Stand tall
It's going on
It's going on
It's gonna be just fine
You're holding on
Holding on today

heard it during the emo ending of crumbs. mann these guys rock!! :D

==iloveadorepraiseworshipcan'tthankHimenough==

His promises will never fade... He knows how hard it is, because he endured everything before. The greatest thing to ever happen to me, my Jesus :)

LOVE YOU!!

Camp's coming

2006-08-21T13:52:00.000+10:00

WHOAAAAA!

Camp's really stirring things up, in good and bad ways. On Sunday i was sorta in this huge pit, so many things were stacking up against me, i felt so hopeless man. But i knew i needed to -worship- and just jump around.

AND IT WORKED!

After service the circumstances and problems were still there, but i had risen above them. and the view from the top really rocks baby! haha

i feel LOUD recently...

LIKE REAL LOUD!

Owh btw Jamie Cullum is seriously starting to become a favourite of mine....

:D

I broke it!!!

2006-08-19T17:14:00.000+10:00

ARGHHHHH!!

This must be my punishment for bragging about my key-holder-thingy....

IT BROKEE!!!! I had just put my jacket down on the chair at the OCF Combined meet at Melb uni when.... the lanyard got caught on the chair handle! and i think i didn't realize but i yanked it and it broke. and it all happened in front of Li! hahaha heart break man....somemore she said it came ALL the way from Msia somemore....ayo feel bad leh eheh

But for now...
It's in a KNOT! haha i know it's like super el-cheapo looking now but i'll get it fixed soon....

A sad sad bear :(

But on to more important matters...

As i was saying, we went for the Combined OCF Prayer Meet at Melb Uni. And besides the obvious joy of meeting Easter Camp buddies again, i was really anticipating a powerful time of prayer and worship. And thru out the whole meeting, i felt God burning something in my spirit, and it was slowly stirring itself. Then when the time of prayer came, i felt it boiling over, and i knew i really needed to go speak it out. PLus the silence in the place was killing me.

Then i got it...God reminded me about the church in the early part of Acts...when they were waiting for the Holy Spirit, and God just said "Go tell them that the church wasn't silent when the HS finally came...they went nuts!". Suddenly someone tapped my shoulder, and i turned and Ee Lin whispered in my ear "I think u need to go spice things up"... haha i knew i couldn't run dy...

Anwy i stepped out of my row and stood on the steps. I was just going through exactly what God wanted me to say, and i was recollecting what exactly happened when the church got the HS, and how they proclaimed it on the streets. Then Ee Lin came and whispered to me " i feel you need to share about when the church got the HS..."

0_o

i STARED at her ! i went like "NO WAY! thats what i got too". Then she just smiled....and you know the joy that came at that moment was incredible. i just couldn't sit still....it was a WOW moment for me

SO i moved to the front and prepared to pray (after quite a long wait actually, there were many people sharing stuff too ). And i did what i had to do. After that i just felt a lot of release, and like the burden just turned into peace... it was a draining experiance i must admit (how preachers deal with the amazing burden when they preach every week i dont know), but i guess it pays eventually when u listen to the HS :D

The devil has been wroking hard to put me down this week. He's using people, circumstances, situations to really try and make me drag my feet and get mixed up in stuff i shouldn't have to worry about. Man i really need to discern whats crap and whats like the real stuff....

Just wanna say thanks to Ee Lin for being the confirming voice and an awesome leader to me! Looking forward to camp sis, it's gonna rock! :D

Dinner at Wayne's

2006-08-18T00:37:00.000+10:00

Today i had the priviledge of going over to Wayne's place for dinner with Hau Wei. Last sunday, he mentioned we were having salmon and steak!! man weren't we looking forward to it! ALthought he couldn't do the steak, the salmon was flippin awesomeeee! and the beef bulgogi and chicken and the udon noodles kicked ass man. I mean it was so good, hau wei kept saying he had cravings for salmon all the way home to Clayton hehehe. Thanks bro for an awesome meal! Your market share price very high too la i think hehe...

I wish i could cook man.... :( den i could have people over for dinner more often. i know who's the first person i need to treat to a good meal ... (hint: *rawr* :D)

Camp's only a week away! Man it's getting excitinggggg!!! Praying for more new signups to make up the numbers and also for Hid presence to just POUR down in that place. it's so gonna rock....

And there's some things that God has promised that would come past at the camp that i'm really looking forward to. I know He doesn't let us down when we do our part and honour the covenant he made with us. God, i'm just gonna wait on you and your timing for this one....hehe....

Sorry if ur like blur at this point....this post is pretty much only understood by myself...

HAHHAAHAHAHAHAA

late la better sleep....going sasau dy :P

oh btw....

my new key-accessory! thanks to Li! hahaha now i really enjoy carrying my keys with me ! hehe!

she got so tired of me leaving my keys around (especially in her house) so she put it on that haha...thanks ya i really love it :D

Love is blind

2006-08-14T02:05:00.000+10:00

Blind by Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

Love is not only blind, but it in itself blinds. Love makes you feel like everything is going ok and that nothing else can matter. Love shuts out wisdom and discernment...

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge; wisdom and instruction fools despise.
-- Proverbs 1:7

Time to make blind eyes see... :)

Convention Ball 2!

2006-08-13T00:46:00.000+10:00

FINALLY i get to blog fully about the OCF Convention Ball!! hehehe.....

Firstly i MUST blog about the haircut i had before that weekend. Altho i got into a bit of trouble with mom and dad back home, (and i do understand y they didn't like me doing it) i'm gonna show it anyway. this was how i USED to look....

So Indian!

Now i look like this....

Wicked! hehehe

Anyway the ball rocked. i actually presented this song i co-wrote with two other wonderful people, Dee Jun and Daniel. it's called "my reason" and i thought it rocked! hehehe it's still plays in my head sometimes :P

Dan, Deej and Me!

Here some other pics from the ball....

My Awesome Cell Group! GO Outrageous AOKS!!!

The Klang people :D

OCF Clayton!

Got somemore pics but lazy to put up.... Had fun as well playing in Bobby's band again....Can't wait for combined meet this week hehe

Convention Ball 1

2006-08-08T02:18:00.000+10:00

heyyy! convention ball rocked!! good to finally meet people i knew back at easter camp man! woohoo....

not gonna elaborate on the ball too much on this post....just thought i post up a picture from the ball....

haha i know this is one UGLY picture.... i HAD to have my eyes closed...arghhhh. but the person besides me makes up for that hehe. ms Theresa (or just T as everyone calls her) i really think you're a talented asset in God's kingdom. Keep rocking for Him sister!!! Always believe in urself...and for the hundreth time...UR NOT FAT! haha :)

As for the rest of you....will post more pics up later when i finally get em so dont worry haha :D

I've got my own room!!

2006-08-02T01:41:00.001+10:00

GOD IS GOOD!

hahaha i finally got my own room. it's been a long one and a half years sharing a room, and finally God has blessed me with my own room. it's not that i didn't like staying with someone, it's just that sometimes i need my personal space, and i need a place to pray and worship in secret, and now i finally have it! Only He knows the times when i really wished for my own space, and the times i had to do my devotion in unappropriate places :D. Now i'm just figuring out how to decorate/facilitate it to make it more homely ehehe....fun!!!

Another reason i'm happy is coz hau wei just posted some more Grampians pics on the OCF website.... here's two pics i kinda like :

Firstly...

She's gonna sooooo kill me for doing this....but i know i must.... I told Pegs that i wanted to take a picture, but i wanted us to make funny faces. So i said "Let's pout our lips" and i pouted mine, and she followed....then as the picture was gonna be taken i smiled! hahahahahahahhha

She was pissed for awhile after that....but she should be used to it by now, coz i'm always mean to her :) but hope you realize by now that it's just to show how much i love and appreciate you :D... *rawr*

Secondly....

Nothing really spectacular about this shot, just that it's so candid...and Dee Jun looks like an annoyed mum glaring at her naughty kids.....*glareeeeee*.... hahaha. and of coz Li and Charlotte is in the pic too....altho you cant see much of Charlotte....hahaha....eh i miss your Ah Lian hair colour la Li....your new 'dark brown' is just too black :P

My friends rock!! I guess it's coz i have a GOD who rocks :D...

Sunday Blues

2006-07-31T00:18:00.000+10:00

Sam spoke at church today and what she said made me realize that

I WAS SO DISTRACTED!

My life has just been WEIRD over the past week or so. I somehow felt like i was faking a lot of things and that things that shouldn't be taking my attention have been pulling me away from my goal and my stand. Today at church, even as i went in to the prayer meet, i wanted felt so....lost... in His presence. i wanted to...

-cry-

and just complain about what i'm feeling. i just dont understand stuff nowdays, why i get certain feelings, why trivial things bugs me like crazy. I realized, i needed a change of

-atmosphere-

i need to be around people who build me up, who stir me on, who challenge me to do something greater. and then i realized maybe i need to be that kind of person as well, and it's time i take charge of my thoughts and whatever i do. Sam said you need to prophesy over you life witht he Word of God, maybe its just time....

Besides the complicated stuff....i'm doing FINE! :D....gonna try something crazy tmr....i might just blog about it tmr night....hehehehe

Better Together

2006-07-27T23:20:00.000+10:00

Better Together

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
And no song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart
And our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer
at least for most of the questions in my heart
Why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together

It's always better when we're together
We'll look at the stars when we're together
it's always better when we're together
it's always better when we're together

MAnn....Jack Johnson just blows me away.... :D

Anticipate something

2006-07-24T23:54:00.000+10:00

Danny Gug spoke in church on sunday, he said something that really hit me:

"If you don't expect God to heal you, you won't get healed. if you don't expect God to do something, he most likely won't"

We always expect stuff. I think everybody on the face of this earth has expectations, and something is expected of them by someone else. Expectations determine how far were willing to go, how long were willing to wait, and how much were willing to sacrifice.

Anticipation can kill you, especially if you need to wait a long time for that certain something ( or that certain someone :) ). Some people expect TOO much out of thier partner, and they drive thier other half nuts. sometimes we expect and then don't get what we want, and we get dissapointed.

Anticipation is torturous...

especially when what you're waiting for is right in front of you, but you cant reach out and grab it coz God's saying wait my son, just wait on me. That's one of the struggles you go through when you let God take control of your life...He really does!

That doesn't mean we don't anticipate. Anticipation is like us letting God know what's our hearts desire, and then He decides if it's good for us or not.

Anticipate something...

Dance Dance Dance

2006-07-22T10:13:00.000+10:00

It's 9:57 am on a saturday morning, the first Saturday that i have nothing to do , in a long long time. i really appreciate mornings like this where i can juz chill all morning, wake up but still roll around on my warm bed till i get tired of it, and then go downstairs for some breakfast. it's getting more rare that i have these saturdays to enjoy, considering that were all so busy nowdays with stuff :)

But i'm even more thankful for the freedom i've found this week. If you've been reading my posts, i've been talking about burdens, and being weighed down with stuff... but this week it's all been heaped off my back. and i feel refreshed, i feel light (not in a physical sense i guess ... :P) and i feel like i need to DANCE DANCE in the FREEDOM i know....Church's gonna be soooooo awesome this week!!!! :D

I've got a care group lunch this afternoon. MAn i realllyyy love my DG!! and then futsal at the halls, followed by a Juwita Suwito and Jacklyn Victor concert at daniel's church .... sounds like a good plan eh? :) ...

it's 10:07 now.... gonna go back to rolling on me bed heheheheheh :P

Fruits of your sacrifice

2006-07-20T23:30:00.000+10:00

I was just talking to an old friend, Wei Jin the other day and i thought i'd blog about the memories. i remember when i used to not have enough money to buy food during canteen breaks, and i would go sit under the second tree, counting from the classrooms, at the main assembly ground at ACS Klang, and how this 'cili padi' boy would sit with me and we would just talk, and play with the sand near our feet, and just being friends. i remember being there when we committed to serve in CU and he was afraid cause he was a bit shy (yeah right!) and was like malu malu at first. and how Mrs Koh wud be after our heads for every single small thing that he did wrong in the letter he wrote or whatever; being the secretary was a hard job isn't it ? :). i remember the times we fought about stuff and couldn't agree, but always made it up to each other eventually.

i remember how your sacrifice of yourself, although sometimes you didn't feel like it, but you did it anwy, brought light into our school. i remember the group of students who wouldn't listen to what the world SAID we should do, but rather did what our Saviour NEEDed us to do in the school. we changed cultures, atmospheres and customs. We just became what God meant us to be, in whatever shape and form, and in whatever capacity we could, and now we see the fruits of our sacrifice. How ACS Christian Union is going strong with good attendance, and will continue burning strong in that school. You guys rock man!! Every single one of you :)

And Jin i miss our friendship, and the secrets we used to share (and those i didn't really keep very well :D) and the times we wud play football and come lepak at ur house. seems a long time ago, and we've moved on from then.... but you and the rest of the guys still hold a very special place in my heart...and i just want to say

THANK YOU !!!

for making me who i am today . Love you guys! :D

It's been awhile!

2006-07-20T00:49:00.004+10:00

I'm Baccckkkkkkk!!!

Haha it's been awhile since i've blogged, so i thought i wud juz say something. I went to Grampians!!! Woohooo!!!

A group pic with a crazy looking ben :)

Me looking calm and collected near the falls :D

Man i had fun with the guys that went. And Charlotte came too! Good to have someone from home over and being able to reminiscence about the good ol days ehehehe...and of coz together with Li, we were the three musketeers from KLANG!! Go Bahkuteh Go!!! Speaking of bakuteh, juz wanna mention abt the wasted bakuteh we should have had up there. Thanks so much Pegs and Hau Wei for taking care of us up there, and cooking and stuff for us. You guys rock!! :)

Altered Frequency are going to come over real soon. 4th of August at Clayton!!! Whoa it's gonna be an awesome time !! And plus they are staying over at Li's place, and she's over the moon because she has "superstars" staying at her place! hahaha don't be naughty k?! :D

I need to find more time to blog about stuff i guess. HAvent been talking to my family back home for awhile. My fault la that one....have been busy like nothing else....only third day of uni and already i've been out like from 9 to 10 pm everyday....crazy!!! But all for Your glory Jesus, wherever You take me i'll follow, whatever you need me to do, i want to do it...:D

More pics to come la.... Once i go around collecting em from everybody! they are so scattered!!!

Feeling shag...

2006-07-07T02:42:00.000+10:00

haha this is my quote of the week:

As Daryl passed me on the football pitch

" Wah play football very shag la...."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Shag does sound like foul language but hey it makes sense to me hehehehe....

Another word i picked up is buggered.

"this blog very buggered la, got no pictures one..."

Ok ok i will post up pictures real soon :D

I've been thinking of....

2006-07-07T02:09:00.000+10:00

ENGLAND!!
Man when they lost, the world cup just ended for me. Quite sad that they didnt make it through AGAIN....but you know i'll always support you lions. And to be honest, i'm very rpoud of you guys for the way you played against Portugal.... gear up for the NEXT WORLD CUP (or EURO :D)

FRIENDS!!
Of all the friends that i've accumulated till this point. Had the chance to meet 2 people from home this week. The first was an 'arch rival' (she's a rival coz we keep trying to insult one another hehehehe) . Mich do you still have that awful beanie on?? i didn't mean it k? jangan marah :). Charlotte came as well and will be holiday-ing for a week. Good to see old friends again, but it's always awesome to think that some 'old' friends have been here all throughout my stay in aussie ( winks at fairy and green hornet ehehe). Mr. GH im sorry for the insult during the mask night, and i hope u find a date to take to the movies with you :P.

RELATIONSHIPS!!
This week or two has been rather a 'enlightening' week for me in this area. it all started with the book i started reading and i've really been thinking a lot (thanks to the holidays) about what the future holds, and what kind of standards and lines i need to adhere to. Amd although it may be the hardest thing in the world i wud think for me to give certain 'priveledges' up, i think i WANT to do it for my future 'better half'. Heck, if God's in control, why do i have to worry about putting up a good 'show' now and trying to make things move by themselves. But it doesn't neccesarily mean we should not think about it at all. i know i've been guilty of thinking too much as of recent times....but heck la theres nothing else to do anwys!

HOLIDAYS!!
are almost over :( ....

GRAMPIANS!!
here i come!!

GOD!!
Urgh i feel almost embarassed to talk about the amount of time i spend thinking about Him compared to the time i'm doin something else or juz letting my mind ponder on other issues. i think there's always room for improvement, and i want to get better in my walk with God. muz 'bertaubat' from now on!! ehhehe....

ATTITUDES!!
A friend has really thought me a lesson on attitudes. i sometimes ask myself the quesition "Would i be comfortable and happy talking to me?", and sometimes i know i wud either be bored, or irratated or juz plain uneasy talking and living with....ME! And this friend of mine really helped me realize that attitude makes so much of a difference and that it's not what i have or the skills that i possess but the attitude and the heart thats right to live life. Thanks friend, keep smiling, and keep bringing hapiness to people's life around you, just like you did to mine :)

SLEEP!!
Argh i can sleep all i want when im retired and waiting to die....right now sleep is a luxury i can live without!!

my OCF COMMITTEE!!
Love you guys to bits, although sometimes i don't show it :D... we got breakfast coming up ar...heheh

last but not least....FAMILY!!
yes i know i've been slacking in the 'calling home' department. don't worry will call home soon enough :D. Love you guys.

Snakes and Ladders

2006-06-27T09:50:00.000+10:00

WHOAAA!! Camp ROCKED!!

Yes it's true, camp was so so awesome! and although i spent like 50% of the time behind the keyboard, i was truly blessed and refreshed by His spirit. And it also marked my 1st year anniversary for me in OCF, so...... HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO ME!! heheheheh

this one year really went by pretty quickly. I could still remember how we met in front of Robert Blackwood hall for last year's winter camp, and not knowing anyone else i tried my best to stick with Li, but she was busy with her camp stuff. And how Nikko drove me home from camp and how this year when Pegs drove me home i remembered what happened the year before, and it was a special feeling to me (yes Pegs i'll remember you sending me home too next yr :D ). One year in the family; i had many many great moments, met many many great people that made life so much easier. These guys are truly family to me, and i'll never stop believing in them!

Anwy back to camp. The place was really really cool i felt. Many many things to be done, but too bad we had very little time. i tried the flying fox, and had sort of a rought landing (:P). Tried archery and found out i sucked at it (and that June can be dangerous with a bow and arrow hehe) . But above all, i think the best thing to happen at camp was the worship and praise and the presences of God. I was really touched by His presence. I'm amazed that He never fails to show up whenever you call on His name. That's juz sooo awesome!

This is my italian connection in camp...

TORRIDO! ('Hot' in italian)

This was my cell group. We really had fun talking and just making ourselves laugh silly. And the skit was a fun thing too :P. Hope to see u guys more often in OCF from now on hehehe.

Got to go get some chores done. To be honest, bloggin has made me feel much better. i guess thinking about good things and good people (ahem) makes u fee that life's not about the problems we have to deal with, but about the other people and the fun you have with them. :D
GOD BLESS EVERYONE!

Looking Forward....

2006-06-22T00:38:00.000+10:00

It's the night before my final exam. i'm up to my ears with arrays and malloc's that im starting to flip! C ain't something you can study overnight, like any language it requires time...but time is something i don't have!

Anyway just thought i would pause awhile and reflect on the events of late. I have to say my heart has been vulnerable, in a sense that i easily let stuff in and caused it to hurt the past 3 weeks. Of course, there was the Godly, passionate ache of my heart for the people around me and those who are lost and yet to be found. And the need to satisfy that hunger had grown immensely, as God began to reveal stuff to me through His word, i'm beginning to hear Him clearer day by day. Can't wait to get done with exams and focus on Him and His voice again....

On the other hand, my heart has been aching for other things as well. I'm glad to say that in some areas i've shown tremendous improvement, being able to overcome somthing i thought i wud always live with. My hearts focuz and desires have changed, thus my habits and attitude towards life and the things of God change. But there's some people holding me back, there's some relationships that bring more grief than encouragement. I'm learning to let go; not to end relationships or to live a loner, but to stop worrying so much about others. I do my best to help and be a friend, but if it keeps getting me down, i'd rather leave it.

It's better that i lose a friendship and closeness i have with someone than to lose the vision and plan God has casted into my life. And i do pray that my friendships will always be encouraging and that i'll be a blessing in return. i really do. but some won't, i know that. i realize that it's what ur aiming for that matters. to make many many friends? or to live according to His plans? Eagles fly alone...

Time to look forward.
Time to see...
Revelation

Untagged!

2006-06-20T11:23:00.000+10:00

I've decided to remove the 'tag question and answer' thing from my blog. Just felt that it wasn't appropriate thats all... besides i got like really hard questions so.... :D

Last exam on Thursday. Can't wait for it to be over and so i can start listening and doing stuff for Him. But even throughout the whole exam period, He's just been so awesome!

3 more days to go....

Busy Busy Busy

2006-06-04T00:36:00.000+10:00

WOW!

This week has been INTENSE. This whole week, i've spent almost half of my day in the library...studying! And the amount of stuff i had to do this week has been nuts! one assignment, one report, a lab test, tonnes of revision, all in the last week of the semester. Crazy....

I guess it's pretty pointless blogging about stuff when all thats in your head are bode plots and saturation currents in the cut-off region of MOSFETS.....it's driving me nuts. on friday i really scared myself silly, at the moment the reality of how much i had to study in a few days hit me. but i thank God for friends who were there to support me....

One of my biggest support (partially coz she stayed with me in the library for most of the week :D) this week is .....

... the bubbly Mitze Lau!

Thanks dear for accompanying me through the week and really encouraging me when i was scared (no scared anymore tho hehe). Everytime i see you smile or laugh, i really thank God for what He's done in your life, and how He's sustained you through the darkest moments. Always remember that people will come and go, I may come and go (altho i dont intend to juz yet....), but God never leaves us nor forsakes us. Keep holding on to Him altho sometimes things looks bleak and He's doesnt seem real. Always know too i'm always there for you, and i'm looking forward to you coming along to Winter Camp! hehehehe....Carez!!

Yes people i'm stressed...but my God's got everything under control...:)

Even young men grow weary...

2006-05-29T11:52:00.000+10:00

Was just doing a quiet time in library on Monday morning. Yes, it's been reduced to doing it in the library. Have been trying my bestest to find a quiet place at home but it's pratically impossible. i remember the bible mentioning something about how we should go to a secluded place in silence, close the doors and windows behind us, and seek God in that privacy so we can truly listen to his voice. i can't help but wonder why i don't have my own private place....somewhere where i can really listen to Him. i've been beginning to believe that it's coz he wants me to CHERISH my time with Him first, so that i won't take it for granted....beginning to love the small time frames that i AM truly alone with Him...so God it's working! hehe...

i was reading Isaiah 40...and two things really stood out for me. First was in verse 11

He tends his flock like a shepherd:
He gathers the lambs in His arms
and carries them close to His heart;
he gently leads those that have young.

when i read this verse, i had this awesome sense of security and love. like how only God can provide it. he gently leads those who have young. i dont think in today's context it refers to pregnant women or something like that. i think what it means is that God GENTLY leads those who have special needs, who are weaker than the rest, who have a spiritual disability in a sense. He gently leads...wow...only a few verses before Isaiah proclaims how powerful God is by likening us to grass....and how God just blows us over and away if he needs to.

The last few verses (30 and 31) really spoke to me though...

Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope on the Lord
will renew thier strength.
They will soar in wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary;
they will walk and not be faint.

i want to run and not be weary; to walk and not be faint; i WANT to soar on wings as eagles do.And i desperately need to RENEW my strength. Hope on the Lord. Hope on the Lord. Hope on the Lord.

The thing about hoping on Him is, he's not interested on us hoping on Him for things we CAN'T do on our own strength. It's the things we CAN do on our own strength, the things we think we are capable of doing by ourselves. Those are the things he wants us to hope in Him for. But God, if we can do it on our own strength, why should we "bother" you? :)

I've grown to learn we never "bother" God. He's always craving for that moment when he can speak to His children. He gets excited when we ask him to help us in something we can't do. what more if it's something we CAN do and HOPE in Him anyways.

I'm just so amazed at the ways of our God. How awesome is the love and the character of the Lord. As Isaiah put it:

As the heavens are higher than the earth
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts

Isaiah 55:9

Oh that old rugged cross...

2006-05-28T00:56:00.000+10:00

On a hill far away stood an old rugged cross,
The emblem of suffering and shame;
And I love that old cross where the dearest and best
For a world of lost sinners was slain.

So I'll cherish the old rugged cross,
Till my trophies at last I lay down;
I will cling to the old rugged cross,
And exchange it some day for a crown.

O that old rugged cross, so despised by the world,
Has a wondrous attraction for me;
For the dear Lamb of God left His glory above
To bear it to dark Calvary.

In that old rugged cross, stained with blood so divine,
A wondrous beauty I see,
For 'twas on that old cross Jesus suffered and died,
To pardon and sanctify me.

To the old rugged cross I will ever be true;
Its shame and reproach gladly bear;
Then He'll call me some day to my home far away,
Where His glory forever I'll share.

Love ya Jesus! Thanks for the sacrifice you made, forever grateful :)

REDLINE Men's Conference and my NEW baby...

2006-05-27T14:56:00.000+10:00

REDLINE MEN'S CONFERENCE Rocked!! Man it was an awesome time of worship, fellowship and preaching, all done with my brothers in Christ. The preachings were just riveting. This guy, Bishop Joseph Garlington was juz amazing. he had a sidekick named Clarence, who had piano skill i was drooling over. he just created the awesome atmosphere for the preaching. Joseph spoke on knowing God's will for your life. I liked what he said about those who worry whether they are in God's will or not....

If you want to be in God's will, ask Him to put you there.

It's no point asking God over and over again whether you're in His will, just ask him to put you there and have faith that He will :)

He spoke about 5 constants that you face on a God given mission for your life:
a) Enemies
"Without Goliath, David would only be a kid who threw rocks". Enemies WILL come and stand in our way, no question about it. The thing is, God KNOWS that the enemy is there, but he sends us on the mission anyway, so that we will learn to deal with them.

b) Destructive and Constructive Elements
These are elements that tear down strongholds and build altars in your life. And everytime were tearing down stuff which is not in God's will, the bible says were untying the works of the enemy. How powerful is that! By getting ourselves right, were actually undoing what the devil did and maybe even helping someone else get themselves right :)

c) Opposition
1 Chorinthians 16:9 says that a wide door avails itself but there are adversaries in the way. Whenever a door is open, there will be opposition that will try and stop you because Opportunity is preceeded by opposition. But on the other hand, opposition is an indicator that were right on track in our mission for him. Reminds me of James 1:3 ... ( and Hau Wei grins as he reads this... :D Bro ur on the right track, keep at it!)

d) Requirement in courage
A possible acronymn for FEAR could be False Expectations Appearing Real. Fear is a decision; either we submit to it or resist it. the choice is ours. Psalms 23 comes to mind. i'm so thankful he's always there to walk me through my mission.

e) Nothing Happens in the Kingdom until SOMETHING is said.
Words CAN become worlds. If you need to say something that will encourage or correct someone else, please do it because don't expect changes until something is said.

This message just blew me away. Couldn't help thinking how much the girls (who were having thier own girly PJ party hehe) missed. This word wasn't ONLY meant for men, but it was something every christian should embrace. the other speakers also did extremely well, and overall this Men's Conference was just an awesome time for me. (although i didn't really get the car bashing bit....and why we got skittles...hehe)

Anyways i wanna take some time to introduce you guys to my new baby....she's NOT a musical instrument this time. She somewhat complicated and very very delicate....Meet Ms. Loudness Indicator!!

I told you she was complicated stuff hehe. Basically what this does is it takes in audio signals via the mic on the left and it will light up the LED's on the right according to the loudness of the input sound based on a logarithmic scale. All in all this baby consists of 34 resistors, 6 OP AMPS, 5 LED's, 3 capacitors, a diode and a mic, totalling at 50 components!! (to put things in perspective, other projects have only about 11 components on average). i'm soooo proud of my baby!! (oh yeah she's actually shared between me and Prasad :P)

She's going for assessment on Monday. i hope she shines her cute lil LED's for all to see hehehehehe.....:D. Couldn't have done it without the help (and patience) of my group partner. Man this semester's getting nuttier by the day. thanks for getting me through the MIPS test man....the stuff u told me b4 the test came out exactly as u said it ... phew~

Burden is heavy

2006-05-25T00:35:00.000+10:00

It IS heavy...

Been feeling off all week. Heck even since last week God has been trying to tell me something. But i have been too pre-occupied with studying and getting my electronics assignment done and doing this and doing that, that i sorta put God's word on hold. Yes i did have an awesome tims on Sunday at church and committee prayer on Tuesday, but the burden got heavier.

Was talking to Pegs and Hau Wei after i got back from uni. i had a plan to study at 11pm, coz i have a test tmr! den all of a sudden, it hit me. i felt this burden....to pray....for what?....i dunno...just pray...stop asking....go... so i went. spent time with God...but i was distracted. hadn't studied at all for my MIPs exam. 'oh nooo, i can't put it off any longer' i thought...so i came back up after awhile. tried to force it, God kept nagging...

Sigh~

Ok God you win as usual. Won't live on my OWN strength but i'm gonna depend on You from now. And i know you'll help settle my exam tmr. Not even slightly worried actually :). You DID help me finish electronics against all odds. Stop questioning, start believing. :D

p.s. will show u guys my electronics project on my next post....it's flippin cool wei hehehe

Earth is Training for Reigning

2006-05-23T23:29:00.000+10:00

Genesis 1:26

Then God said " Let us make man in our image, and let them RULE over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth and over all the creatures that move along the ground."

God made man AFTER everything else so that he could let us RULE it. That's also why He made us in His image, so that we can share his dominion and rulership of this world. In that case, in everything we do, we can actually proclaim your rulership over it through Christ Jesus because in Him we live and have our being.

Wow, that just blew me away. Me sharing the rulership with JC. I've got the Power! (Look up acts 1:8 :D )

Anwys here's 10 things a true leader should strive to be (Got it from DNA and Ps. Russell ) :
a) Has Revelation
b) Rule and Reign over Conditions
c) Understands who he is in Christ
d) Always develops himself
e) Led by the right thing
f) Doesn't need a title to start leading
g) Serve's thos who are leading
h) Has an understanding of Godly authourity
i) Speaks the 'Leader' Language
j) People of Faith and Innocence

Would like to comment on:

Understands who he is in Christ
I've been struggling with this bit for awhile. I do think i've made progress in the sense that i start to care less about what others think of me, and what i do and stuff. Now i think the problem is that, at certain parts of the journey, i may have to walk it alone. I guess i'm guilty of becoming comfortable, comfortable in my own group of friends that i'm afraid to step out on my own anymore. Understanding who I am in Christ will enable me to only depend on one person: CHRIST!

Doesn't need a title to start leading
I think i've sorta got this concept. But i'm fearful, once again coz i think i come from a home church where title and status is everything, and usually people who are deemed worthy of sucha title will do more things then others who are juz normal. I need to break this lie that you need titles to do certain things. If i have the burden, i'm gonna do it, whether im 'titled' or not.

Speaks the 'Leader' Language
Don't get me wrong, leaders don't have an exclsive language or something. What this means is that as leaders, we need to be CONSTRUCTIVE, ENCOURAGING and BUILDING or anyhting that would bring increase into someone else's life. When's the last time i said something encouraging, or constructive. i know when i've been mean tho....too often actually!

Well that's what i learnt at DNA today. I like the phrase Russell used...Earth is Training for Reigning, and truly we need to reign over our circumstances to see his Kingdom be established.

In other news....

ME and MY Kettle and MY Cuppa!

Talk about El-Cheapo! I brought my kettle to uni so i can make my own coffee. He he. Got a few stares when i carried my kettle to the toilet to get water, but i DON'T CARE! i mean when i got my hot cuppa coffee i was so ba-ha-gia! Pegs also had her coffee, altho she's not supposed to! Hmph naughty girl. And Hau Wei had Chai Tea (Jerica if you ever read this....It's your tea!!) which he got from coffee HQ. was quite good actually. later Li used the cup to make instant soup. was a bit weird seeing her eat soup out of a coffee cup.

Daniel dropped by and dropped some food (which i told him Li wanted, which was true, but it was good for me in any case). Andrew went and got his dinner and sat and makan there. Walau library becoming like kopitiam. After this we will be wanting to bring a portable stove and cook in there also hehe.

Fifie has PICK IT UP!!! Argh i wished i lived in Botswana or somewhere far far away..... But you deserve it girl!

Positioning myself

2006-05-22T00:37:00.000+10:00

Positions are important - that's true! Take football as an example. Individual skill doesn't stack up against good positional play. that's because football is a team sport

Christianity is a team sport

We're a team; Jesus and me. That's why positioning is important. he might want to pass me the ball but i may be out of position. passing me the ball could mean disaster, could mean the ball being lost.Other Christians are team as well. I may need to position myself so that i can help a brother or guide a sister in Christ. or maybe i'm IN thier supposed position. i need to re-position so that our manager (Jesus) can play His awesome tactics perfectly :D

Posture is important too. once you have positioned myself, i need the right posture. which means i need to be in shape (no only physically :P) but also spiritually. Why? So we can handle the job or task that we were positioned for.

Prayer, Praise, Soul Winning, Persistance and Overcoming Strongholds build posture

Would like to leave you with this. Some of us are wearing clothes that need to be shaken off, because it's holding us back. When Bartimaeus (blind man) got called by Jesus, Mark 10:50 says he threw his cloak off, and then went to Jesus. Some of us needs to let go of things that take up space, and occupy our hands. When God's starts dealing out favour and revelation, we'll not be able to grab hold of it because we've got our hands full. Time to let go.

How do we receive this city (Melbourne, or whatever city you're in), if we can't receive the blessings that God gives to the church? if we can't handle/receive the small things, there's not gonna be space for the big things, so start emptying your hands...NOW!

Altar call anyone? He he he.
i think this is a good way of remembering the preaching at church. Ps Russell really gave us an awesome word today. and there were so many salvations ( plus one guy who actually jumped off the balcony to get to the altar....WOW talk about passion lol). City Church is really an awesome revelation. Can't wait for Pick It Up next week...it's gonna be wicked!

*drums rolling*
Presenting something which i really enjoyed, WE really enjoyed....and something p.ewe (didn't come coz h.li cooked) missed muahahahhaah.......TA-DAH!!

FISH HEAD CURRY AT RICH MAHA'S

Hau Wei, Joshua, Chris, Andrew, Kevin, E-Lyn and myself had the honour of digging in into this awesome looking dish....Man it was sooo awesome!! But it came at a price tho ...quite hefty... but still it was worth it!! And i ate with my hands for the second time in a week....that's already more times than the whole of last year combined ... :-0

Remember, always position yourself for favour! ... and possibly flavour too :)

Need to let You know

2006-05-21T11:20:00.000+10:00

WOW! I thought it was seriously refreshing. GOD i want more encounters like that. There's something about worshipping and crying out to him alone ... reminds me of this song

in the quiet, in the stillness
i know you are God ...

And not that i never tried to do that before, but in my house its practically impossible. Firstly i share my room with someone who hasn't received Christ (notice the use of the word hasn't :D) and secondly theres nowhere in the house i can go to where i can be alone. it's really that bad. i've tried to do it downstairs but i always get disturbed by someone trying to cook something in the kitchen, or coming down to watch the telly. its Frustrating i tell you...

some of you may have read my previous post and went "What's up with this dude? Mayb he's thinking too much, or he's juz overacting or something....". to be honest i did realize people would get concerned with the blog, but i didn't care. this blog's not FOR them. i'm not trying to entertain or make others feel good inside (although i do try to do it :P). so yeah just a disclaimer that you may find stuff which you wouldn't want to read on my posts ... hehehe.

anwy i was still dealing with stuff yst, when my roomate left for somewhere at 11 pm! he NEVER, i repeat NEVER goes out at night usually. well i went upstairs, and i juz put on some worship song, i just worshiped. Oh the freedom and privacy! Was truly sweet, and i had a good time talking to my daddy...WOW I want my own space God! i promise i will use it to glorify you and to worship You in the quiet, in the stillness.

Ok Honouring time! I'm really blessed by this next group of people. They have made me who i am today!! Let's start with MOM and DAD

No prizes for those who can guess which's my mom and dad :P (i was shocked to find this was one of the only decent shots i had :(. must take more when u guys come down). This was taken just before i left for Australia in my first year, so evidently they were praying really hard hehe. Alex and Margaret Raj, you have really done an awesome job raising me, and although sometimes i've been super naughty and don't listen to what you have to say, just know that I love you guys to bits and can't wait for you to come see me in Melbourne! Love ya~

Den there's my brothers and my grandma

thats David and Daniel my bros. And my dear old grandma. She's been serving in church for ages now. Really love her to bits. and my brothers are very naughty la...aiya but i still beat them both at football hehe :P

Then theres my extended Klang family!!
They all showed up to see me off last year :P. Thanks guys! Your guys are awesomeeeeee...

And finally theres .... ME!!

Doing what i do best....:)

Need to let You know that I love You Jesus. You've given me awesome family, thanks so much!! :D

Losing it...

2006-05-20T02:23:00.000+10:00

sadly...

can't hold it...

i'm losing the plot...

i can feel it slipping away...

what got me to this situation i don't know. but this week, i just felt like i was losing my vision for what God has in store for me. only 2 weeks ago i THOUGHT God was trying to tell me something, with the burdens he placed in my heart and all, i thought i was getting a REVELATION, something to work with.

But all i have now is a lousy attitude and a distracted mind. i really think my attitude towards God and ministry stinks as of the last few days. and i hate it....hate living this way. i hate doing stuff and 'going through the motions' while being too concerned about what people around me have to say.i detest living for any other cause. why? cause i know man can fail. he failed me many times before. only God will never fail, and i'm grateful for that.

i can name a few things that might have caused my focus to be blurred. studies, relationships, commitments, selfish desires. man i can picture evey one of them now, and how it's pulling me away from what God wants in my life. and also, i have this attitude i've always wanted to get rid of and i haven't succumbed to it yet, but its tempting me. it's tempting me to be cynical, judgemental and drawing me to jump to conclusions easily. i KNOW for a fact this can cause others to stumble. that's why i'm trying not to fall into these things. it's hard tho, but i try.

what should i do? well i need to stop being selfish, and start thinking like i used to, the mindset which has God first and me last. i need to stop being complacent, i need to find that fire again. i need to find the drive, i need to set the reason im doing this for straight. i don't believe i let friends get in the way of me and my ministry. feel so duhh...well it's not that i dont need friends, but mayb i shud learn to need them less. total dependancy placed on the most high, never seeking for worldly approval, always seeking to glorify his name by doing EXACTLY what he wants, even tho i do it alone.

i need my plot back....

i want to find it...

God help...

please...

...

Pick it Up!!

2006-05-18T00:02:00.000+10:00

We had URBAN LIFE today at Arise's place. Not that i had a friend named Arise!, but we played this game where everyone was given a name and they had to use it throughout the whole meeting. Well i got promise, so everyone started to call me Promise the Bear. Errr ok....among the other names was Praise(Hau Wei), Love(Pegs), Joy (Christine) and many others. but the most teruk one was Sam, coz he got Beauty, and i kept going "Hey beautiful"...and smiling cheekily...lolz i'm so gay sometimes....

Today's worship was AWESOME! i had so much fun playing keys. For those of you who don't play an instrument, my advice is PICK IT UP! ... a musical instrument i mean. it's just a totally different level of worship and i want you guys to experiance that. it's never too late to do it. Btw, Pick It Up! is coming soon!!! and it's gonna look something like this....

man it looks so darn funky!! Can't wait to get my hands on it and juz get wasted by the awesome tracks and the worship.....so EXCITED!!!

if there was something God has been trying to teach me this week, is to learn to let go and let God. it's exceptionally harder when you KNOW you can handle the situations your way and it would be alright, but he want's you to hand it over to Him anwy? wow that's like super difficult. but i hope i've been senseitive enough to listen and to do accordingly. Have i mentioned that i love Him so so much?

Owh juz as a side note....check out what Christine drew for me...she did it when she had a free day yst...i must admit i found it weird at first but it's growing on me hehe ...
Ok it just looks wrong la....but hey i think it's kinda cute in it's own way :P. so i said...

jon: hey the bear looks weird la. why the hair like so funny one...and the misai so long leh...
christine: orh...okok i will change...

so i thought...ok she's gonna fix the weird hair and the moustache and make it cuter or something....
(5 mins later)
Christine: So how's the new one??
Jon: Still weird leh!

She said she's gonna do a new one...this time with a red bottle and a red phone...heheh cute la she. but i'm just amazed on how she can find the strength to do everything she does. she's in uni, shes a manager at maccer's, she's in planet uni serving faithfully, she always has 101 things to do, but she still finds time to serve God and give her all to Him. and i know sometimes she may be soo tired that she wants to juz drop down and rest, but she still presses on and perseveres to serve Him. that's what i love about you, faithfullness, a teachable heart and an awesome heart of worship. i really wanna honour you for being you :D

Sadly i don't have a picture of you and me like the rest of em. so i'm

- reserving this spot -

so that when we eventually take a picture together i'll come post it here...heheh. God bless ya Christine...continue to shine for Him!!! *Hugs*

Drastic Measures...

2006-05-16T00:10:00.000+10:00

Today was bad, sucky, crappy, lousy and jusy so YUCKY! It started out in the morning, overslept, missed lectures, had this bad sounding morning voice (which Hau Wei heard) that i couldn't get rid of for about an hour, and was juz so lethargic and lazy. And then it got worse when our my electronics assignment was going nowhere. Everyone else had thiers built and all, but ours was still unassembled. Felt so left behind la...

I was juz praying and asking God why this day was sooo bad. i just had this huge cloud over me, i couldn't even think in peace, was so bogged down by my feelings. and then i knew i needed to take drastic measures...so i did this...

and it's quite weird coz hau wei went to a totally different barber. but he got a new cut too, so i didn't feel too left out hehe. then the girls all insisted on taking pics with us (except racheal hehe). it looked something like this...

The two newly-cuts with Peggen-o-saurus...

...with Hui Li the Fairy, and ...

Rachel!

needless to say the haircut lifted me up somehow. but the real uplifting part was when i came back to thier place for dinner (thanks so much girls for the dinner was fun eating with u guys hehe). after that we had an urban life leaders prayer and i tell u the place was rockin with God's presence and i really had an awesome time of prayer. UL guys, you rock! Keep it up!

So in the end, my day turned out to be not as bad as i thought it would be. Love God sooo much!

*strokes head to feel "carpet"-like hair and grins cheekily*

Before i go, just wanna honour the GUYS in OCF. these guys are so flippin fun to be with...man i dunno how OCF would be without em. Guys just continue to burn brightly for Him and i pray we all get a new revelation during the redline men's conference. :)

The guys at camp. This is a before picture. Watch Daryl closely, he's sitting beside me....

wait for it..... timing is everything....

Sherlynn tries to be smart and throws a her slipper into this picture. Watch how fast Darly jumps up to grab it hehe.

*My point: None really...just that these guys can crack you up :). Love you guys to bits!*

My Discovery Group Rocks!!

2006-05-15T01:21:00.000+10:00

this my friends are the AWESOME people of whom i have the privilege to call my discovery group.....presenting the

OUTRAGEOUS OAKS!!

Back row: Robin Koh the DG Leader, Jeffrey the Cell Crasher, Rene daughter of Chee Kai, Yeow Siang the Policeman aka Pencuri, Mei Ying the Construction worker, Rowan Son of Chee Kai, Su Lyn the Cool Gal, Sherlynn the Ping Pong Champ, Hau Wei the "i look so gay" guy, and Hong Yueh the Cool Guy I

Front Row: Yours truly the unicorn looking guy, Bruce not from "Bruce Wayne", Chee Kai the Host, Jamie the Loud Laugh Person, Dee Jun the Extremely Nice, Fui the boyfriend of Dee Jun the Extremely Nice, and Sunny the Cool Guy II

We had an AWESOME time at cell dinner. Firstly the food rocked!! Chee Kai really knows how to throw a party man. there was fish head curry and mee goreng and stuff. Dee Jun made great Bakuteh. i have to admit i DID stuff myself silly but it was all worth it! ehehe

Then we had games. besides the fun of playing ping poing in the CoLd, we played Taboo which was heaps of fun, but then we didn't tally the score at the end so we didnt know who won (??). wasted time writing down score hehe. the we played Oom Chi Chi which was soooo tiring coz we were laughing our brains out. Then we did random stuff (like take this picture). Really had a lot a lot of fun with u guys. Just wanna thank the leaders Robin, Mei Ying, Dee Jun and Jamie for an awesome time. Until we meet again my DG, take care :)

I really need to honour this guy. He's been a big brother to me of recent times, and he's a really good friend to talk to and share stuff about. With further ado....presenting TAN HAU WEI!!

Hau Wei and I as part of the (now defunct) T-Shirt Gang
(sorry Chen Hua and Pegs but i needed a pic of juz Hau Wei and I so hope you don't mind being 'censored')

i sense we have the same heart and passion in the things of God, and it's really great to have someone i can talk to about how God is so awesome and how God speaks to me in the weirdest of ways. but besides all that, just being someone with whom i can just do life with, and always encouraging me to do my best for Him. thanks bro, keep up the awesome stuff ur doing and im looking forward to the rest of the semester serving in OCf with ya. God bless!!

<GIRLS, please be informed that i'm his official agent, so please leave a comment if you may be interested or require further information...>

*he's gonna so kill me for doing this hehhehehe*

:D

HEart that LOOKS always OUTwards

2006-05-14T01:35:00.000+10:00

yes i'm going to use that word that christians find hard to say and live up to.... and most of the time fail to take seriously...

evangelism
Function: noun
1 : the winning or revival of personal commitments to Christ
2 : militant or crusading zeal

Even to me it's a concept i haven't actually really worked on till now. Having taken up the role of Outreach Officer last year, i did tell myself that i wouldn't do it BECAUSE I have the post, but because it came from a heart that really LOVED and went out to the lost. having read what the mirriam-webster dictionary says about evangelism, anyone would think the first definition would be the typical definition for the word. but the second one, the second one's a lot more interesting. the militant or crusading zeal when doing something. this hit's me hard coz He's beeen constantly reminding of spiritual warfare when were out in the battlefield of life, and how the evil one tries to make us retreat in out fight for the lost. Can someone pass me my armour pls? :)

SO twas a cold Saturday morning when about 25 of OCF Clayton's members braced the winds and sleepiness a usual Saturday morning offers to come and learn more about how we can be effective evangelists. to my surprise we were the largest group there!! Really proud of you guys for being hungry and passionate to learn! Keep it up! Well the speaker Bro Micheal really gave us some insight on how it SHOULD be done, and what different types of people we might be dealing with when we do it. Was really blessed today!

*couldn't concentrate during the workshop, God kept nagging. My heart was heavy all through the session. in the middle of it i closed my eyes and just worshipped and prayed. the burden was so heavy, so so heavy. you can't sit still and juz try and wish it away coz it nags. nags. and it won't stop till you do something about it. still don't know what it was about. but im relieved i wasn't the only one who felt that way. he told me he felt the same thing

"burden was so heavy i couldn't breathe."

will continue to pray. God's got my attention. During the meeting God pointed me so clearly to James 1:3 "Consider it pure joy my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds." i wonder what he's trying to say...*

Lastly i would like to honour another person in my life. She's been oh so dear to me, especially in the last few months...she looks something like this hehe

Li and I watching some movie at Josh's

Quek Hui Li, you have been an AWESOME friend to me and i thank God so much for being able to go through Uni life with you here in Clayton. Who knows if you EVER read this post, but I wuld like you to know that you're SPECIAL, and that you're a great woman of God, so great that you've got all the boys chasing after you ehhehe :). Continue to shine for Him and love Him with all your heart and strength. And maybe lately you think I've been pre-occupied with other people, like the "t-shirt gang" you proclaim us to be, please believe me that you'll always be special to me and whatever it is we Klang ppl stick together eh? hehe. love ya to bits!! *hugs*

2006-05-12T02:35:00.000+10:00

WATERFRONT AND GRECO'S

Had our last meeting as Easter Camp Committee at Waterfront today. Wow and I can tell you that place was PoSh!! Juz check these out...

Eileen , ME and Jon Lee before dinner....The scar DOES look HoT doesn't it :P

This is what i ATE...Don't be fooled it was full of bones...*ugh*

LAst pictures of EC2006 committee...with Jun Ming missing as usual :)

This is what we ate at Grecos...~faints~

Just wanna say i love you guys so much...Hau Wei, Jerica, Su Ee, Jun Ming (aka BObby), Jon Lee, Eileen, Liang Jin amd Eleanor and June who cudn't make it tonight, you guys are champions and you really impacted my life so much. Hope to see you guys more often in OCF and church. God bless ya heaps!!

Before i go on i need to take this time to honour someone very special in my life. She has really been the person i look up to and admire, and she's been such a friend to me that I can't stop thanking God for her. Besides shes the only one who knows this blog exists, so yeah!

Pegs and (a stoned) me

You don't realize how much You have blessed my life. All I pray for is that God will do a mighty work in and through your life. Thanks for the effort you have put in to encourage and support all of us. I know we've all been so so blessed. Love ya heaps!!

*roar*

*peggen-a-yellow-saurus is coming*

*roar*

:D

Dinner at Hau Wei's

2006-05-09T01:48:00.000+10:00

Hau Wei had us over for dinnnerrrr!!!!
I'm excited around food, so i definitely had a good time. This guy can cook man.....roast lamb, mashed potatoes, coleslaw, soup....goodness it was a feast.
I think that's why Li said his Market Share Price naik hehehehehehe
Thanks Bro! it was just awesome! and especially the fellowship afterwards, i do treasure these moments coz i know i might not get the chance to do it too many times.

Thanks Peggen, Li, E-Lyn and Hau Wei for making my day!!!

Of Prophesies and Promises

2006-05-08T00:55:00.000+10:00

Church Rocked!!
Period
Ps. Dave McCracken was so sharp today. He actually prophesied over a few persons and i really felt in my spirit that he was spot on. He gave an interesting picture to the church abt the future of City Church. i'll try and emulate exactly what he said:

"I saw a garden, and in it was many trees. One of these trees was exceptionaly huge and had many fruits which had been growing rapidly. But i also saw a huge eagle like creature hovering over this tree, and having devoured the fruit of other trees, set it's eyes on the fruit in the huge tree. As it hovered, the downwind created stunted the growth of the tree which was once phenomenonly quick. then i saw little bows shooting little arrows towards the bird, and because they were little it didnt have much effect on the giant bird. and when the bird saw this he spewed a fine spray and it fell on the tree and turned to a fungus like substance. this caused the bows to get entangled and weren't effective. then i saw the entanglements cut off, and the small bows merge into a big bow, and it shot a large arrow at the bird and injured it to a point it flew away. and the tree continued to grow bearing bigger and countless fruit. and the gardener came to prune off the branches which had great fruit, and planted it somewhere else. where the gardener pruned, there grew another branch, so much so that the great tree wasnt lessened but the pruning."

Ha ha it sounded like story from a story book. But the meaning of what he wrote was pretty phenomenal. Will take a few days to pray and digest what it all means....

On a lighter note, it's one more month to exams (I said lighter!!). God help me...

The Reason...

2006-05-07T02:49:00.000+10:00

Everything has a reason. Which led me to wonder....Why blog? why waste that few minutes of your day writing down what your feelings are, what you're going through, WHY you're going through what you're going through. Many questions, few answers. Yes maybe im trying a bit too hard to sound dramatic (like some blog writers do), but sincerely i want this to reflect me, and what i am really like. thats why i need a reason to blog, a reason i can remind myself when i get to a dry point to keep going. Why blog Jon, why??
I always knew i needed a REASON to blog. HAs the reason come yet? i don't know. but i do know one thing, blogs have the power to ENcourage or DIScourage. the meaning of the two words are pretty simple: EN means to put in and DIS means to take away. i believe that what i blog about can give someone courage or take it away. simple as that. i want to GIVE courage, coz God knows we need it to survive in the world today

Father i pray that every person who browses through these pages of my blog will see something different, that You will be potrayed in every word that i write. Help me not to write about things that will DIScourage, but help me write something that ENcourages. Help me abstain from gossip, slander, backbiting, deceit, over-exageration (and misspellings too :D). And may every reader realize that it's You who put everything in it's place and holds everything in Your hand, through my testimony. In Jesus name, AMEN!

SO yeah i'm praying you would be blessed with what i have to write and say about life and stuff in general. Above all i think, He's the reason we live and have our being. Love ya heaps :D