Sunday Blues

Sam spoke at church today and what she said made me realize that

I WAS SO DISTRACTED!

My life has just been WEIRD over the past week or so. I somehow felt like i was faking a lot of things and that things that shouldn't be taking my attention have been pulling me away from my goal and my stand. Today at church, even as i went in to the prayer meet, i wanted felt so....lost... in His presence. i wanted to...

-cry-

and just complain about what i'm feeling. i just dont understand stuff nowdays, why i get certain feelings, why trivial things bugs me like crazy. I realized, i needed a change of

-atmosphere-

i need to be around people who build me up, who stir me on, who challenge me to do something greater. and then i realized maybe i need to be that kind of person as well, and it's time i take charge of my thoughts and whatever i do. Sam said you need to prophesy over you life witht he Word of God, maybe its just time....

Besides the complicated stuff....i'm doing FINE! :D....gonna try something crazy tmr....i might just blog about it tmr night....hehehehe

Better Together

Better Together

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
And no song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart
And our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a shoebox of photographs
with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer
at least for most of the questions in my heart
Why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing, it's always better when we're together

It's always better when we're together
We'll look at the stars when we're together
it's always better when we're together
it's always better when we're together

MAnn....Jack Johnson just blows me away.... :D

Anticipate something

Danny Gug spoke in church on sunday, he said something that really hit me:

"If you don't expect God to heal you, you won't get healed. if you don't expect God to do something, he most likely won't"

We always expect stuff. I think everybody on the face of this earth has expectations, and something is expected of them by someone else. Expectations determine how far were willing to go, how long were willing to wait, and how much were willing to sacrifice.

Anticipation can kill you, especially if you need to wait a long time for that certain something ( or that certain someone :) ). Some people expect TOO much out of thier partner, and they drive thier other half nuts. sometimes we expect and then don't get what we want, and we get dissapointed.

Anticipation is torturous...

especially when what you're waiting for is right in front of you, but you cant reach out and grab it coz God's saying wait my son, just wait on me. That's one of the struggles you go through when you let God take control of your life...He really does!

That doesn't mean we don't anticipate. Anticipation is like us letting God know what's our hearts desire, and then He decides if it's good for us or not.

Anticipate something...

Dance Dance Dance

It's 9:57 am on a saturday morning, the first Saturday that i have nothing to do , in a long long time. i really appreciate mornings like this where i can juz chill all morning, wake up but still roll around on my warm bed till i get tired of it, and then go downstairs for some breakfast. it's getting more rare that i have these saturdays to enjoy, considering that were all so busy nowdays with stuff :)

But i'm even more thankful for the freedom i've found this week. If you've been reading my posts, i've been talking about burdens, and being weighed down with stuff... but this week it's all been heaped off my back. and i feel refreshed, i feel light (not in a physical sense i guess ... :P) and i feel like i need to DANCE DANCE in the FREEDOM i know....Church's gonna be soooooo awesome this week!!!! :D

I've got a care group lunch this afternoon. MAn i realllyyy love my DG!! and then futsal at the halls, followed by a Juwita Suwito and Jacklyn Victor concert at daniel's church .... sounds like a good plan eh? :) ...

it's 10:07 now.... gonna go back to rolling on me bed heheheheheh :P

Fruits of your sacrifice

I was just talking to an old friend, Wei Jin the other day and i thought i'd blog about the memories. i remember when i used to not have enough money to buy food during canteen breaks, and i would go sit under the second tree, counting from the classrooms, at the main assembly ground at ACS Klang, and how this 'cili padi' boy would sit with me and we would just talk, and play with the sand near our feet, and just being friends. i remember being there when we committed to serve in CU and he was afraid cause he was a bit shy (yeah right!) and was like malu malu at first. and how Mrs Koh wud be after our heads for every single small thing that he did wrong in the letter he wrote or whatever; being the secretary was a hard job isn't it ? :). i remember the times we fought about stuff and couldn't agree, but always made it up to each other eventually.

i remember how your sacrifice of yourself, although sometimes you didn't feel like it, but you did it anwy, brought light into our school. i remember the group of students who wouldn't listen to what the world SAID we should do, but rather did what our Saviour NEEDed us to do in the school. we changed cultures, atmospheres and customs. We just became what God meant us to be, in whatever shape and form, and in whatever capacity we could, and now we see the fruits of our sacrifice. How ACS Christian Union is going strong with good attendance, and will continue burning strong in that school. You guys rock man!! Every single one of you :)

And Jin i miss our friendship, and the secrets we used to share (and those i didn't really keep very well :D) and the times we wud play football and come lepak at ur house. seems a long time ago, and we've moved on from then.... but you and the rest of the guys still hold a very special place in my heart...and i just want to say

THANK YOU !!!

for making me who i am today . Love you guys! :D

It's been awhile!

I'm Baccckkkkkkk!!!

Haha it's been awhile since i've blogged, so i thought i wud juz say something. I went to Grampians!!! Woohooo!!!

A group pic with a crazy looking ben :)

Me looking calm and collected near the falls :D

Man i had fun with the guys that went. And Charlotte came too! Good to have someone from home over and being able to reminiscence about the good ol days ehehehe...and of coz together with Li, we were the three musketeers from KLANG!! Go Bahkuteh Go!!! Speaking of bakuteh, juz wanna mention abt the wasted bakuteh we should have had up there. Thanks so much Pegs and Hau Wei for taking care of us up there, and cooking and stuff for us. You guys rock!! :)

Altered Frequency are going to come over real soon. 4th of August at Clayton!!! Whoa it's gonna be an awesome time !! And plus they are staying over at Li's place, and she's over the moon because she has "superstars" staying at her place! hahaha don't be naughty k?! :D

I need to find more time to blog about stuff i guess. HAvent been talking to my family back home for awhile. My fault la that one....have been busy like nothing else....only third day of uni and already i've been out like from 9 to 10 pm everyday....crazy!!! But all for Your glory Jesus, wherever You take me i'll follow, whatever you need me to do, i want to do it...:D

More pics to come la.... Once i go around collecting em from everybody! they are so scattered!!!

Feeling shag...

haha this is my quote of the week:

As Daryl passed me on the football pitch

" Wah play football very shag la...."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Shag does sound like foul language but hey it makes sense to me hehehehe....

Another word i picked up is buggered.

"this blog very buggered la, got no pictures one..."

Ok ok i will post up pictures real soon :D

I've been thinking of....

ENGLAND!!
Man when they lost, the world cup just ended for me. Quite sad that they didnt make it through AGAIN....but you know i'll always support you lions. And to be honest, i'm very rpoud of you guys for the way you played against Portugal.... gear up for the NEXT WORLD CUP (or EURO :D)

FRIENDS!!
Of all the friends that i've accumulated till this point. Had the chance to meet 2 people from home this week. The first was an 'arch rival' (she's a rival coz we keep trying to insult one another hehehehe) . Mich do you still have that awful beanie on?? i didn't mean it k? jangan marah :). Charlotte came as well and will be holiday-ing for a week. Good to see old friends again, but it's always awesome to think that some 'old' friends have been here all throughout my stay in aussie ( winks at fairy and green hornet ehehe). Mr. GH im sorry for the insult during the mask night, and i hope u find a date to take to the movies with you :P.

RELATIONSHIPS!!
This week or two has been rather a 'enlightening' week for me in this area. it all started with the book i started reading and i've really been thinking a lot (thanks to the holidays) about what the future holds, and what kind of standards and lines i need to adhere to. Amd although it may be the hardest thing in the world i wud think for me to give certain 'priveledges' up, i think i WANT to do it for my future 'better half'. Heck, if God's in control, why do i have to worry about putting up a good 'show' now and trying to make things move by themselves. But it doesn't neccesarily mean we should not think about it at all. i know i've been guilty of thinking too much as of recent times....but heck la theres nothing else to do anwys!

HOLIDAYS!!
are almost over :( ....

GRAMPIANS!!
here i come!!

GOD!!
Urgh i feel almost embarassed to talk about the amount of time i spend thinking about Him compared to the time i'm doin something else or juz letting my mind ponder on other issues. i think there's always room for improvement, and i want to get better in my walk with God. muz 'bertaubat' from now on!! ehhehe....

ATTITUDES!!
A friend has really thought me a lesson on attitudes. i sometimes ask myself the quesition "Would i be comfortable and happy talking to me?", and sometimes i know i wud either be bored, or irratated or juz plain uneasy talking and living with....ME! And this friend of mine really helped me realize that attitude makes so much of a difference and that it's not what i have or the skills that i possess but the attitude and the heart thats right to live life. Thanks friend, keep smiling, and keep bringing hapiness to people's life around you, just like you did to mine :)

SLEEP!!
Argh i can sleep all i want when im retired and waiting to die....right now sleep is a luxury i can live without!!

my OCF COMMITTEE!!
Love you guys to bits, although sometimes i don't show it :D... we got breakfast coming up ar...heheh

last but not least....FAMILY!!
yes i know i've been slacking in the 'calling home' department. don't worry will call home soon enough :D. Love you guys.